Life is crazy and unpredictable. Covid makes it even more unpredictable ... But getting through it with someone else domination? Had a mind blowing week.
So....
I've spent 2 weeks watching a whole family fight off Covid Delta variant. It's one thing to watch one family member... But 3? My energy is spent. I went through this only to be told by my own blood that this was none of my business & I need to mind my own business. But it would have been the whole family's business if he died just feet away from the hospital lying in the rain. Yes, this almost happened. So all of my emotions that are all over the place were pinned up and blocked.
But I'm still rather new to this lifestyle. The one thing that helped me through this crazy moment was domination. It blew my mind to have a Dom's dominance help release any and all pint up emotions. I seriously don't understand how or why dominance could do this. I didn't think I really had that emotional connection with the person. Maybe I did and he didn't. I don't know but it was mind-blowing to experience.
I probably will never get to experience that again but I'm happy I got to experience that moment. Seriously thinking about leaving the lifestyle since I can't get what I want fully. Done trying. But that moment of perfection domination was amazing.
Just thinking out loud 🤔
❤️ In Search of Truth ❤️
And
Seriously not giving a flying fuck about anyone else
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