This lifestyle journey is so crazy to me. The craziest thing I have noticed is the emotional rollercoaster ride.
I hate vulnerability. I hate feeling weak or needy or clingy. I hate the unpredictability that comes from some external force, i.e. Dom. I don't do holding onto things. I like clean breaks. Accept the inevitable and move on.
I don't like there's a person who knows me better than I do, who sees through all my BS, smiles, and know what to say to cut me down or build me up.
When I b stepped back into this life, I just wanted to laugh and have fun. No strings attached. Found out some Doms are crazier than a soup sandwich on Ritalan but there were no strings and I was safe.
What I didn't expect was to learn the power of a Dom who was yet to know the extent of his on influence and take me a journey that would launch me into evolution of self.
Sure there are days we want to strangle each other. But he lays every corner bare, and I think I do the same to him.
This is something I'm not used to.
Not used to at all....
In Search of Truth