Who you think you are it's not who you really are. There's so much more to you.
What you feel is beyond your comprehension. There are emotional canvases painted in emotional disgust hiding the beauty of the real you, the emotional you. There's so much more to you.
Your tears are just a piece of the tapestry that makes your life a unique blend of influential experiences. They are but a moment in time, passable if you let it.
Your loneliness is but a point...a sharp dull point. Painful as it may be, it rips through you only to let light flow in... Light you may not see but others see well. Others that follow your light to their own inconceivable redemption and salvation.
You are so much more than you really are
So....stay
Take someone's hand
Use someone's light
** This is for me. This Christmas is hard as it is the first Christmas without my sister. Today was her day to do Christmas breakfast and a huge family get together. My babe would be to go over so he could be with her and the big boys. I wish she chose to stay but her love for others cause her to sacrifice herself and covid took her away. So...My pain will be hidden with a smile soon. She left but I need to choose to stay.
I used to consider this lifestyle an escape from reality. But my life isn't that fulfilled as much as I would like it to be in this lifestyle. My opinion of Doms is low but I understand they are human and can't really pay good attention to a little or sub. We have to find our own way and happiness without Dom in it. So today I'm blocking my Dom out in hopes of getting myself together. I can be his escape even though he will never be mine. His life is fulfilled apart from me. Mine needs to be the same.
This journey into who I am as a little/sub has revealed an incomprehensible amount of tapestry of my life.
I'm just me
Not giving one flying fuck
Take me or leave me
Because forever...
I am who I am
~ In search of truth ~
