What I have come to learn is that I will never understand this lifestyle.
I don't get any of this and there's no one to fucking talk to. I'm sick of assholes though.
What I do know and understand is that we are ppl here. Dom and sub alike should be respected. If a person can't respect you, then they don't deserve to be in your area, occupying your time.
I can't live without a certain amount of respect whether I'm a sub or not. It seems like Doms have zero respect for submissives. I don't think I'm a sub then. I'm very sure that this can't be all doms. I never believed in the absolute of anything.
Respect should be mutual...not one sided. I mean if I'm ok with you disrespecting me, then at least I was respected enough to give you permission to do as you please. Whip me, spank, or whatever is ok. However, emotionally damaging a person, or opening them up to be harmed, or getting angry because they won't let you just because you are a Dom is never ok. Treat a sub at least as if they are human.
What's even more interesting is that the more I researched into this, as well as what I'm experiencing from Doms, is that a Dom not having even the slightest respect for the basic necessity of the sub is a considered to be acceptable among some. A Dom can violate boundaries but a submissive can't? A dom can harm a submissive but a submissive isn't considered a "good girl" if she is hurtful.
Recently, I recovered from covid. So, am I supposed to make sure I stay a "good girl" when I can barely breathe? I'm actually still recovering painfully so. So how am I supposed to try to "keep up" the "good girl" status quo when I'm handling shit bigger than me? This is where basic human dignity and respect comes in that I'm finding out more and more Doms lack.
Idk... These are just my random thoughts on this journey.
I'm just me
Without one plea
And I no longer give a fuck
whether or not you like me
~In Search of Truth~
