Poems and more from the Heart, Soul, Mind and Spirit

Intimacy is not touching her body

in moments of lust, intimacy is

touching her mind, her heart, and

her soul when you are miles

apart, when you are separated,

when oceans, mountains, and

forests stand as obstacles

between your souls, that is

intimacy and love at its most

potent.

My neighbor has just really pissed me off to the point that I really want to blow his shit out of the water.  How the fuck you're going to pursue me knowing that my friend thinks that they are a couple?  What type of shit is that?  It has been going on for a couple of years now and more now that she has moved away.  Men need to grow the fuck up and stop playing with someone's heart.  He has the nerve to fucking tell me he loves me and why I'm not giving in to his advances. Mother fucker seriously???  What the fuck is going on in your damn head??? I'm so sick of his shit it's not even funny.  I'm going to take the high road and bite my tongue, I know for a fact that if i say something, this person will be so damn heartbroken, there will be no going back.  The most fucked up part about it is that he wants to propose to me HOLY SHIT ON A SHINGLE BATMAN!!!  He even showed me the ring yesterday. Little does he know this other person and i talk alot.  He's going to visit her after visiting a relative, now mind you he wanted to take me to see his mother and then the family reunion on Monday. Of course, i turned that shit down.  He must think we're stupid women smh. She purchased a phone for him that i had to set up because of course he didnt know how smh.  I called her from his new phone as he was speaking with her, mouthing that he loves me. ASSHOLE DICK MOVE!!!!!  I feel that my new bat is going to get put to good use soon.   I' ve been hurt so badly, I rebuilt the wall around it, as for this other person, she has let her guard down and it's not right what he's doing.  So, I'm helping her keep her guard up with him without saying what he's doing. He's going to get caught eventually.  I hurt for her, she deserves so much better than this asshole.

I love the sundress my gf made ??????

Yesterday my son started as I was looking z's notebook to see how her day was. Still in her wheelchair, playing with her harness straps. It was a total of 2 mins and we just walked in the door. He comes over to take her out, which is fine. Its when he started his ranting episode..  i let whatever he said go until....... Im not your n word and sure as hell not.your bro.  He no longer calls me mom (I don't meet the requirements) ??????  He continues as always it's a fact that I'm not responsible,  blah blah blah. So when I told him well thats his opinion and not a fact he loses it, oh well, ifgaf anymore.  I turned the tables and he couldn't handle it at all. He automatically assumed that I was going to talk about his son, why you asked? I said something about his situation and how his son is screwed in the long run months ago.  Once he said you're nothing to me, get.your shit and there's the door. Usually, I would be shaking, this time I was calm and relaxed. I got tired of being afraid of standing up for myself against anyone especially my kids. Since he feels that he doesn't need to contribute, and doesn't acknowledge my existence, he will be leaving either on his own or by police.  I refuse.to tolerate anyone's bullshit.   I miss my good old friend. He needs.to be replaced and today has.to be the day to find a replacement.  I didn't want.to revert back.to this person inhad to let go, but fuck it. Im tired of people taking advantage of me especially my son.   It stops today.