Growing up watching Kung fu movies, I became very fascinated in the fighting styles. Idk ever remember trying to imitate the different fighting styles. But what intrigued me the most was the women. How they were obedient and submissive to their husbands,undressing, bathing, whatever their needs were the women tended to them.
I always wanted to be submissive to whoever i was going to be with. No matter what relationship I was in, i wasn't appreciate to the the point i wanted to continue to be submissive. Even in my last relationship of 16 years. I showed my submission right away, letting him know that i can tend to his needs no matter what or when. Little did I know that I was submitting to a complete inconsiderate person who still wanted to sow his oats. I kept trying and trying then once again I gave up, realizing he wasn't worth my time, energy, love or body anymore.
I came to the realization that the reason they didn't appreciate what was being offered is because I wasn't who they wanted. It took me a long time to accept it. It was a hit from reality I didn't expect, my eyes are open a little wider, maybe a little wiser ( key word maybe). I may add to this one post later on in the day as I continue to think and come to the realizations of my life. Believing what i may not have, I've had all along and didn't notice it due to my attention was somewhere else.
