HEAVEN'S STARCHILD(switch female)

Poems and more from the Heart, Soul, Mind and Spirit

Poetry that i have written in the past and present. I'll also be adding short stories that I have written (stepping out of my comfort zone), my thoughts, desires, inspirations and the journey of healing on all aspects of my life. Enjoy and thank you for reading ((HUGS))

I'm sorry

3 years ago. July 11, 2021 at 6:07 PM

I'm sorry for not taking more of the abuse

I'm sorry for not allowing you to hurt me anymore

I'm sorry for constantly giving myself to you

I'm sorry that I made a sacred space for us in our home

I'm sorry for remembering your birthday

I'm sorry for asking about your day

I'm sorry for believing in you

I'm sorry for what I have done from the heart

I'm sorry I don't have anything left for you to take

I'm sorry for giving you numerous chances

I'm sorry that you believed the lies about me

I'm sorry for not continuing to fight for what I believe in

I'm sorry that I allowed you to treat me less than what I deserved

I'm sorry I couldn't be used for financial purposes

I'm sorry that I made myself available numerous times

I'm sorry for letting you know my door is always open

I'm sorry for speaking with love and kindness

I'm sorry for forgiving you and not myself

I'm sorry you couldn't see the truth

I'm sorry you couldn't see your worth

I'm sorry I refuse to be taken advantage of

I'm sorry for trusting and loving you

I'm sorry that you don't understand how you made me feel alone

I'm sorry that you don't care

I'm sorry that my gifts were unappreciated

I'm sorry that I respected your home

I'm sorry that my reactions were a result of your inactions

I'm sorry that you couldn't handle a strong woman

I'm sorry that I'm not weak minded, something you desperately crave.

I'm sorry that my identity frightens you

What I'm not sorry for is the lesson that was taught. Not everyone is going to be honest, truthful, open, motivated, determined. Not everyone will reciprocate what has been given. That's it's ok to walk away without closure. It's ok to continue to send love and forgiveness. And that not every apology is sincere.

Master13(dom male){MajesticLy} - I am sorry that your going through this. Sending smiles and positive vibes 👍

3 years ago

HEAVEN'S STARCHILD(switch female) - Ty 😊 ((HUGS))

3 years ago

sarahrah - What a beautiful invitation to people!
Sometimes I can feel: I am sorry for existing, I am sorry I am bad, I am sorry I don’t know how to connect with others, I am sorry that being my real self bothers you..

Thankyou for the isha system where I learn how to love me, how to connect with my heart, where I can cry scream and hit until I feel better,

3 years ago

HEAVEN'S STARCHILD(switch female) - One thing you should never be sorry for is existing. For whatever reason why we are here, we must live each day to the fullest despite the struggles we face on a daily basis.
Thank you for sharing and being open. Im very interested in the Isha system. Definitely will look into that for sure.

3 years ago

sarahrah - Awww that touched me, Thankyou. Yes I struggle with self hate but have come very far to love myself a good chunk of the time. The facilitators in the isha system are good at helping me keep coming back to my heart and it amazes me. What I crave a lot of the time is ME to love me. So cool you’re gonna maybe check it out! They do a seminar for new students which costs a fee but after that it’s free. The meetings are super cool on zoom, people crying hitting expressing ha and then feeling so good after.

3 years ago

HEAVEN'S STARCHILD(switch female) - I feel deep within i need this. I've been cut down to the point of self hate and becoming a person I never thought I would be. I was even thinking about deactivating my account and cut off.this part of me permanently (that's how bad I've been cut)

3 years ago

sarahrah - Wow then yeah follow your gut and check it out. Better yet I can have someone reach out to you if you feel comfortable giving an email or number. The actual isha centers are in Mexico and Uruguay so the students are global which is also cool. So they use WhatsApp a lot.

I am SO sorry to hear about this abuse. Yeah you’ll get stronger in yourself so you’re not a match to anything like that again. Another thing that has helped me greatly is teal swan (just google teal swan she has many amazing videos on a wide variety of topics

3 years ago

HEAVEN'S STARCHILD(switch female) - I used to listen to teal.swan and Ralph smart. They have helped me alot in the past. Def will send an email. Thank you so much 😊 ((HUGS))

3 years ago

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HEAVEN'S STARCHILD​(switch female)

Poems and more from the Heart, Soul, Mind and Spirit

I'm sorry

HEAVEN'S STARCHILD(switch female)