So it’s been one full year since we met - not started talking but actually met!!! It’s been an amazing year and most of the time I still can’t actually believe we found each other!!!
I like a little celebration so, I asked Daddy if we could have two First Anniversaries!! Our First First Anniversary was when we started talking and our Second First Anniversary was when we met for the first time!!
I wouldn’t recommend people meet for the first time the way we did - we didn’t meet in a public place first, neither of us considered the safety issues - I mean I might have been a psycho or something!!! We both totally dived in - 100% committed!! Our first meeting was sweet and amazing - it felt like we had known each other forever - it was like coming home. Don’t get me wrong there were fireworks - lots of them, but everything felt soo natural, there was no awkwardness.
We have come along way this year, our relationship has deepened into something I could only have dreamt about. I have experienced a love and an acceptance for who I am that I did not know was possible.
I’m not saying it has been 100% perfect as we all know that just isn’t possible. There is only one thing we have had “discussions” around and that is communication. It’s been me that has had melt downs about this, which I think is a lack of confidence in myself, always needing and seeking confirmation of Daddy’s feelings for me. As time has gone on I am definitely more positive and confident - I still have wobbles but remind myself how much Daddy loves me. Daddy is always aware of these wobbles even although I try hard to hold my feelings back!! He is always extra caring and it makes me feel bad, I get irritated with myself for being weak. This is a work in progress and is something I am dealing with - with the help of Daddy of course.
I’ve been reading a book called “The Warrior Princess Submissive”. It’s a really interesting read to be honest and I think what it’s confirmed with me is I don’t NEED to try and fit in box. Daddy doesn’t NEED to fit in a box either. I’ve always wondered the need some people have to put themselves into a box - I’ve never understood why would you want to limit yourself - it would be like eating macaroni cheese (see what I did Daddy) for the rest of your life - I love Mac cheese (a lot!!) but not sure I could eat it forever!! I have always worried I wasn’t submissive enough to be a proper submissive and I think I’m lucky to have found someone who won’t stifle me, someone who won’t force me into a category, someone who has allowed me to grow, learn and develop into who I am and sees the potential in who I can be and encourages that. He accepts me for who I am which is the really amazing thing!! I think he rather enjoys the journey to be honest!!!
Our relationship has developed, grown and naturally progressed into what we have today and I think will continue to flourish as we grow and learn. I’m excited to see where the next year and all the further years will take us.
I love you Daddy 🥰🥰🥰
