Rose's Thorns.

So ive had a sadistic shit of a laptop to get some stuff sorted has been hell. 

Tonight i can feel my teeth sinking into the task... my eyes alight as if its flesh. 

The thorns are coming out to play.... in vanilla land no less.... its time some shit got sorted. 

The throne of thorns is where i sit with a smile upon my lips, challenges are a must for it makes my eyes glow, as you can see i have thorns aplenty, what's a few more?, For my back and sides are already raw, as the blood flows, yet still i sit, a smile upon my lips and eyes aglow. 

Submissives are not weak its just the opposite. 

.... wish i could feel like this all the time, thank you to my friends and family on here for being there xxxx

So finally all set to get stuff done after aranging my laptop to be fixed. I had used it a few times so i thought it had been fixed.... the little shit was lying .... waiting until i got started properly wasn't it. 

So there i was happily typing away getting stuff done to clear the backlog that had sprung up from the last week while it was being fixed and boom it froze. 

Little sadistic laptop.

On the phone with IT from 3pm until 7ish. 

Stupid sadistic hold music they have on the phone. 

I got nothing done, sent it in to be fixed again..... so now another weeks worth of work piles up. 

So so pissed off. 

Im absolutely gutted. I really need my computer. 

So i go home and oh that's right.... no ones there cos i live alone, it too late to go to the library to get any work sorted or the gym to punch something as the bus won't get me back in time. 

Whiskey from earlier is wearing off. 

And i have no Dom or Master to contact, phone up, help with emotional support and listen or fuck me into subspace....

..... so here i am typing on my blog while eating a huge cake and wondering if wine might not mix well with the whiskey i had earlier 

.... trying not to panic that i have no computer to get stuff done and not likely to have one for the immediate future either. 

*munches cake and sulks. 

Arms keeping me safe, 

A knowing smile to charm, 

Ignite a fire in my soul, 

Im yours

All yours

Im home 

X

One of the best things in this lifestyle is the no bullshit rule .... or at least thats what i call it. No screwing each other over or mind games unless its the fun kind lol. 

To me this is my safe space and my home and evey so often I miss being able to submit 

X

... have a wonderful Christmas xxxx

Once upon a time I cried 

Now i feel nothing inside 

Like a black void 

I die

Bit by bit i hide

Until nothing is left inside

Once whole, any meaning 

Has been let go

Each piece once whole 

Ripped apart, 

Vultures circling at

The mangled carcus below 

Yet they wont go.

Hi.

Ive been away from here for a bit. Ive hD some stuff go on in my personal life that feels like a living hell. 

This has become my safe space. Which is why im a little quiet at the moment. 

Wanted to say a big thank you to those people who have checked in on me when I reached out.

Rose 

Woohoo... one hurdle gotten over x

When you've been single for too long and you start thinking thats a good thing because it wouldn't be fair for anyone to wade through the waist high shit to get to you... its simply not worth it and you know what... its probably for the best.

Its rubbish when you start wondering what the point is in even trying and your better of alone. I wont be disappointed and they wont have me to have to deal with...

Dating sucks 

Is it possible to get subbie burn out? When you haven't had the possibility of sub space. Its like being lost... expect you know where you are and who you are, you just have no outlet.