... ive gone back to vanilla land... will wait and see but im too sub like. Thing is it gets lonely and he is a nice guy. So date number two and he puts his hands on my ribs and starts stroking them as we cuddle with his arm around me. I can just about keep calm with a hand on them through my clothes but i can't do anymore. I freak out and manage to untense every muscle and avoid a panic attack.
I said im ticklish which i am.
I really really really don't want to have to answer the question why?
In bdsm land i can say its red and if someone asks i can say in two sentences that never needs to be spoken again.
In vanilla land my experience of this isn't as smooth, its why? When? What? How?
Then oh i forgot, but i can't even touch them now but what about... or you know that thing you said i have more questions.
Its exhausting...... wish me luck guys and gals