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Just insight into my crazy beautiful life.
3 years ago. September 18, 2021 at 3:02 AM

She wakes up and looks at the morning with a new surprised look ...

The first world and its first born ray, entangled in her hair,

through her eyelashes with a light eccentric shadow of a day that still drinks the dew of milky clouds huddled on her chest, with that tenderness that is about to begin to open the silk flower buds...longing to be the beautiful rose for the right one....

To be seen truly. For all the battle wounds and scars to be seen as beautiful. For the Dominant of heart to find beauty in the all the chaos of her past. For the hunger within their Dominance will burn until they set her submission free. Placing in their hands to keep her safe from the world forever more. 

Freeing the slave, to loving accept their chains of Dominance.

With that final thought she drifts back to sleep. To the meadow she will go, and wait for her One to lay her gift forever at the feet of her true Master.

 

 

slave Draconica

 

3 years ago. September 16, 2021 at 7:29 PM

You're a submissive woman

 

You find pleasure, joy, and fulfillment from being submissive

to your Master in a loving relationship.

You're not weak or stupid. You're a strong woman,

with firm views and a clear concept of what you want out of your life.

You do not serve out of shame or weakness, but out of pride and strength.

You will look to your loving Master for guidance and protection, for never

will you be more complete than when I'm with you.

You know that I will protect your body, your mind, and your soul

with all my strength and wisdom.

I'm everything to you, as you're everything to me.

My touch awakens you and my thoughts free you.

Only in serving me do you find complete freedom and joy…

My punishments may be harsh, but you accept them thankfully,

knowing that I have your best interests always foremost in my mind.

If I desire your body for pleasure, you shall joyfully give it to me

and take pleasure yourself from knowing that you have brought me happiness.

However, the pleasure of the flesh is but one facet of O/our relationship.

The love, the trust and sharing, the words spoken and felt,

those are all parts of this relationship.

Your body is mine, and if I say you're beautiful, then you are.

No matter what you look like to others, you're beautiful in my eyes,

and because of that you hold your head high.

If I say you're My precious jewel,

then you're that…a beautiful, sparkling gem.

If I say that you're My pet, my slut, my whore, then you're that..

as wanton and dirty as I want you to be.

Your mind is mine, to expand, to explore, to know only as I can.

You have no secrets from me… for secrets are a thing that would

keep you from being more perfectly mine.

Secrets would put a wall up between your Master and yourself…

and you do not want walls.

My lessons are not always ones you would seek on your own,

but they are lessons I've decided that you need, and so you learn from me.

Your soul is mine, as bare to my touch as ever your skin could be

when you kneel naked at my feet.

Never a moment goes by when you do not feel my presence,

be I be miles away or standing over You.

If you were to ever displease me, My displeasure would be a blow to your soul,

 

worse punishment than any lashes could be.

The anguish of your soul that you feel when you disappoint me

 

is harder to bear than any physical anguish you feel.

You're grateful that I care enough about you to spend

My time and energy so freely on you.

You have the easier job, to feel, to experience,

to let yourself go and abandon everything to me.

You're my pleasure and my responsibility, and I take both seriously .

 

You're a submissive woman.

You're proud to call yourself that, your submission is a gift that you do not give lightly,

and can only be given to the One who can appreciate that gift and return it tenfold.

Only to your Master who has that strength, will you give yourself fully,

because you're strong and proud.

You're a submissive woman

 

This was given to me by a Master that has now passed away. He so very much wanted me to find honor, and pride in who and what I naturally am. 

 

Enjoy the journey and embrace all that is you. Truly it's beautiful.

 

slave Draconica

3 years ago. September 16, 2021 at 7:23 PM

The thoughts inside my head. Sept.16, 2021

Well, today I find myself focused. As many know, I am not in service at the moment. 

 

That in itself can be taxing on anyone with a slave heart and service driven. UGH is the best statement I can truly use to describe it. 

 

However, today I have learned it is so very important to have quality over quantity. I was challenged to add a couple of sites and get my feet back in the pool so to speak. Well if you know me, I am ALWAYS up for a challenge. 

 

Again jumped in both feet. As I am either all in or all out. No gray area here.. however I am working on learning balance. Which is hard because this is naturally my Life everyday. 

 

With that said, eventually I came to a point of not wanting the next service experience. I became ready for MY SERVICE CONNECTION. 

 

To lay my surrender down to the one deserving of all that it is. All the experience, all the knowledge, AND all the struggles, the hurt, the trauma. Absolutely all that is slave Draconica. 

 

I found I do have a voice, and what I have to say matters. At least to the Master that will find beauty in all I am and all I will ever be. 

 

But to be of service, would that be enough? Hmmm. Upon further self evaluation I found nope.. there was another piece missing. I needed siblings. A slave sister or brother I served along side. 

 

This could come from the fact I have no biological siblings. However I have served in a family type dynamic, it was beautiful. I felt complete and whole. 

 

I know leave it to me to complicate things. Hard enough to find a Dominant of the same mindset, let's add poly to it. 

 

I will not ever give up, what I need in a dynamic to just be of service ever again. It can cause so much damage. 

 

I believe in the beauty of this lifestyle. And I believe, in the beauty which is service. I believe in the beauty which is poly. And most of all I believe in the beauty that is me.

 

Today, I believe I am worthy and deserving of the dream. 

 

I know that if anything in the lifestyle there is someone (s) for everyone. You have to be patient, and trust the process. 

 

Thanks for reading

 

The ramblings of my slave mind

 

slave Draconica

3 years ago. September 15, 2021 at 11:50 PM

 

 

The Dominant's Prayer

 

To the power more powerful then myself,

I was born in a way that has sometimes left me mystified

Always reaching to guide those about me

Needing to know that they are fulfilled before true fulfillment reaches in to caress my soul

I have compromised, in many cases, to allow another to be fulfilled

Wondering all the while how it is that they can not see me first, as I see them

I have found myself pushing away all, in denial of my need to always consider another first

Needing to be the one to consider others more needy then myself

The world about me thinks that giving completely is reserved for those who submit

That serving another is not for the "strong"

How could "they" be so wrong

I love that I am the one who can be turned to

The one to solve a problem

The one to set the direction

The Top

The Dominant

Please help me to remain focussed on this need to walk to the front

To always stop when a searching soul reaches out for a hand up

To always be strong enough to pause when all is insanity

To always surge forward when all has stalled

And to give all of me to becoming ALL

Please help me to know when the hand I extend needs to be soft

When it needs to be harsh

When it is needed to wipe a tear or crush a fear

When it is needed for punishment

And when all that is needed is a hug

Please let my nature push through the world about me that questions

I am a Dom

I can be no other

Let me be ALL that is right

 

Written By Master Emery Dragon. And I was given expliset permission to post on all my social media

 

slave Draconica

 

3 years ago. September 14, 2021 at 9:06 PM

I SUBMIT my complete SURRENDER 

 

I have discovered within myself there is a huge difference between submitting and surrendering. 

I am NOT saying that submitting should EVER be taken lightly, however for me and my journey there is more. Submitting is an act..to submit a service to another. To surrender is to lay down your service at the ones feet we serve. To submit is one of the greatest gifts we give to the one we serve. To surrender is the greatest gift we give ourselves within our submission. The conscious decision to let go of all the hurt...pain..insecurities...that has controlled us for so long. To allow ourselves to trust another and within their Dominance we can be free..

Until you completely surrender your service is just an act. Within complete surrender for myself it takes on a different shape. It is AUTHENTICALLY mine. No one else's service can look quite the same as mine does in complete surrender as it comes from my core. From a space of love and adoration and respect for the one I serve. It is genuinely me. 

In submission, tasks are out of duty (at least for me) . In surrender my service is beautiful, and fluid, out of obedience and love. No longer a task but a service from my heart.  

Through my total and complete surrender I fall at your feet and surrender all to you. 

In Essence I SUBMIT my complete SURRENDER. 

 

Keep love and respect in the lifestyle. Be authentically who you are. And may all see the beauty that is you. 

 

Namaste 

slave Draconica

 

3 years ago. September 14, 2021 at 4:43 PM

To my Beautiful Master 

 

As I look up to master through teary eyes

My submission he owns it can't be denied

 

Master binds my hands, he owns my heart

With one touch my uncertainty fell apart

 

Master stops and blinds my eyes

My thirst for his Dominance screams from deep inside

 

Will it be hard or will it be soft

Masters pleasure i will never have enough

 

I am His to do with as he please

His humble submissive proudly on bended knee

 

Master lifts my chin to see inside

Total trust for Him I could not hide

 

With one touch we both knew

Master whispered You're Mine

I blushed. I whispered thank you Master, 

You're mine too…

 

slave Draconica

 

This was written almost 3 years ago for the Master I was proudly in service to. I thought seeing it, reading it, would bring up so many painful memories. 

Today I find myself wanting to say I am sorry for the part I played in the break down of our dynamic.

And I forgive you to for engaging in conversation with another through mentorship. I'm not mad anymore. .

I must confess Everytime Shinedown Not strong enough comes up on my playlist I remember when you sent it to me before our last visit.. always that will be the intensity that was us. 2 Dragons that definitely danced well together. I want you to know, under your care I was able to have my Dragon woke. I'm forever grateful. I'm not going to regret one moment of our journey. 

Today, I smile so big. You have found the ONE created to serve YOU. It's so beautiful. And I couldn't be happier for you both. 

Keep shining that light Dragon, it will continue to light the path of your submissive..to her surrender.

 

I will never forget the Dance of our Dragons.

I am so proud of you and what you have become. This Dragon will always be here if you ever need to talk. And always will I speak to the ancestors in the stars on your House on your behalf. 

 

I too, feel a shift within my surrender. My ONE in which my submission was created for is near.. 

I feel the stir, and my time will finally come.. finally this girl will be home, and get to enjoy her family that was meant for her alone. Finally I will be able to totally surrender and trust.. NO FEAR.. SIMPLE TRUST.

 

Please know you were important in my journey and the slave of integrity and honor I am today. Thank you. 

 

Respectfully,

 

slave Draconica

Keep love and respect in this beautiful lifestyle

 

3 years ago. September 14, 2021 at 4:04 PM

A Master’s appreciation...

 

A slave is strong. Strong of heart and mind.

One’s character is that of wanting to please. One serves because it is pleasure . One has the inner strength to go places within, with Master’s guidance. A slave cannot be weak emotionally or these places could push one over the edge.

 

A slave is respectful. If a slave does not respect oneself then no one else will either. Self-respect includes self-esteem, taking care of oneself mentally and emotionally as well as physically. Self-respect could include such things as getting enough sleep, eating right, exercising, proper grooming, etc...

A slave shows respect to ones Master by carrying out orders as Master wishes. A slave shows respect to one’s Master and others by being polite, mannerly, well spoken, graceful and pleasant.

 

A slave is loyal to one’s Master's wishes. A slave is also loyal to oneself.

A slave should never do anything that is against one’s own moral standings. A slave will also never allow another to touch her in ways that would be displeasing to her Master. A slave knows who owns her and thrives in His/Her ownership.

 

A slave is open and honest. A slave holds nothing back, revealing all 

that one is to one’s Master. Being open and honest leads to better communication, allowing one’s Master to do His/Her job at the best of Their ability, and to know exactly what responsibilities He/She takes on. A slave’s openness allows Master to be more open, thus building trust between T/them and a deeper submission of the slave.

 

Spirit is difficult to describe. Not spiritedness, as that is different. Spiritedness is feisty and sassy. Something W/we speak of frequently. Spirit refers more to a brightness emanating from within. It is that light in one’s eyes, visible to those who understand one’s strong slaveheart.

 

A slave needs to be intelligent. 

Serving includes the mind as well as the body. Intelligent enough to please Master with one’s thoughts, ideas, and input on things that Master wishes. A slave needs to be able to understand Master’s instructions and to carry on a conversation on a multitude of topics. 

Intelligent enough to carry out tasks, multitask, problem solve and manage time.

 

Being a slave is not always easy. Keeping a sense of humor not only helps with emotions, but can help to balance the darkness of one’s desires.

 

A slave finds peace and contentment in serving one’s Master.

A slave is always the reflection of one’s Master.

A slave is Master’s property, His/Her possession, His/Her responsibility. 

A slave shows focus, always keeping Master in the forefront of one’s mind. As a slave goes about one’s day, a slave uses one’s own intelligence and strength to do things in ways that will please Master. 

 

A slave has strong will. The will to accomplish what is set in front of one, to not only grow in strength and knowledge, but to please Master.

 

A slave IS because it’s in one’s soul to be. A slave finds pleasure in the pleasing of another, thriving on another's guidance, control, and presence in life and soul. 

Being a slave is not something one simply chooses to be, but simply who and what one is. It is a slave’s desire to serve one’s Master, to show one’s strength and courage. 

That infact is what beats in chest of a slave.

Their heart beats for their Master. The air in their lungs is for their Master. The very essence that is them also is for their Master. 

For a slave of pure heart.. EVERYTHING is MASTER.

 

Enjoy your journey.

And always keep love and respect in the lifestyle

Respectfully,

slave Draconica

 

 

3 years ago. September 14, 2021 at 4:20 AM

So many of us s types feel broken, lost, a little less than. Especially when our dynamic has failed.

I'm here to tell you, for the one you were created to serve, you will be absolutely everything He needs to allow Himself to be free as well.

 

Take time to truly vet. Don't ever settle because you're in service frenzy. Take time to learn about yourself and truly what your submission means to you without a D type. 

 

I promise you it is worth it.

I have been in this lifestyle 30 years.

Had failed Dynamics.

 

Today I trust the process.

You're not alone. Remember that.

 

Love yourself, serve yourself so that you can infact truly serve another to your best ability.

 

It's a dance between the two, and we as s types are the strings in which our D types play. If we don't take care of ourselves, we surely will be out of tune.

 

Enjoy your journey and as always keep love and respect in our lifestyle

 

Humbly,

slave Draconica

 

3 years ago. September 13, 2021 at 6:48 PM

Starting a new blog.

Let's see if we can get this right

3 years ago. September 13, 2021 at 5:58 AM

Aftercare

 

Aftercare refers specifically to the attention given to a partner (usually the bottom) at the end of a Scene. Aftercare often includes the Top utilizing various pampering techniques on the Bottom in an effort to provide comfort to everyone after having an intense experience that can leave an individual, top or bottom, in a vulnerable state, but this is not always the case. 

Prior to a scene, different people will have different requirements to express during negotiations for aftercare. The amount and type of aftercare required will also likely vary with frequency of play, closeness of play partners, types of scenes, relationship dynamics, fantasy elements at play, intensity of the scene and the overall head space and physical well being of the bottom before, during and after the scene. Be sure to set any boundaries or requirements of aftercare on both sides as part of negotiations. 

Benefits of Aftercare Aftercare is used primarily to not only ensure the partner feels safe and secure, but can also be a wonderful exercise for the aftercare provider as well, further, the nurturing and bonding that occurs helps to reduce the effects of or even eliminate Drop entirely for many individuals. For some, a lack of aftercare can be detrimental not only psychologically, but also physically. 

Best Practices: Standard Aftercare After care will vary, sometimes drastically, between individuals and thus there is no one correct method of aftercare, nor necessarily an incorrect method either, however what is presented is a great template to use for a typical first time partner for a typical SM scene. 

Negotiate Aftercare before the scene starts. Discuss what the needs of both parties are and come to mutual agreement. Perform the Scene. At the end of the scene, the top will ensure they enter a nurturing state of mind to care for the bottom. The bottom will ensure that if they happen to be mentally alert that they will take on a caring and appreciative frame of mind. The top will disinfect and dress any wounds the bottom may have and remove restrictive bondage, debris, and harmful materials from the bottom. When removing a blindfold from a bottom consider doing this slowly and with warning, or perhaps leaving it on for the time being so as not to shock the bottom with assaulting bright lights. The bottom will be safely guided/moved to a comfortable and warm location such as a nearby couch (not a cold cement floor). The top will then place blankets upon the bottom as the body temperature will soon drop. If the bottom is very warm at that moment, consider using a breathable blanket for now, such as something crocheted and then adding more warmth as their body temperature begins to decline. The top will have clean water nearby. Consider having this able to be drank with a straw as the motor skills of the bottom may be impaired if the scene was particularly intense and using a straw may prevent spilling of fluids. The top will not force the water on the bottom but instead offer "Would you like a drink of water?" and present the water, allowing that the bottom may drink when they are ready. The top will provide subtle and soft positive verbal reinforcement to help guide the bottom into a feeling of peace and serenity. The top will provide occasional touch to skin that was not used during the scene on the head, limbs and back of the bottom, tracing the fingers lightly along the skin as gentle as one might touch their own face with only enough force to feel it. These areas of skin may be considered hyper sensitive and touch should be intermittent and not used to torture but instead to relax. The top will offer chocolate to the bottom (providing they not have a medical condition that forbids it) to help increase blood sugar as well as release Oxytocin. The top will continue providing continued yet intermittent positive reinforcement and nurturing touch. The top will stay with the bottom until they are relatively awake, alert, able to care for themselves and in a good head space. The top will not leave the bottom alone to feel abandoned or to fall accidentally. Both will ensure the other is in a positive frame of mind before leaving the other. Aftercare for the Top Tops may experience a level of drop as well as bottoms, though it is less common. Ultimately the top is still required to care for the bottom during aftercare and thus it is unwise that a top should not play harder than what would allow them to acceptably care for the bottom's condition. If this is a known disturbance to play/aftercare then a third party to provide aftercare should be arranged for. 

Principles of aftercare are largely similar for tops as they are to bottoms as described above, though some principles may not apply or need to be creatively adapted. As with bottoms, specific desires and requirements will vary drastically between individuals. See also Dom Burnout. 

Babysitters Sometimes for one reason or another a top may not be able to commit large amounts of time to aftercare and a bottom may crave extensive time for this, sometimes even up to several hours of aftercare after an intense scene. Best Practices indicate it is important that a top generally spend the first five to fifteen minutes or so doing some form of aftercare in these circumstances so that an immediate feeling of abandonment does not set in, and that they have prenegotiated use of a babysitter before the scene. The babysitter will be an agreed upon person trusted by both parties to provide additional aftercare for the bottom once the top is required to leave. 

After-Aftercare Both Sub drop and Top drop are very real conditions that can result from an intense scene sometimes between one to three days from the scene itself. Sub drop, however, is far more common in practice. 

Responsible aftercare doesn't just end shortly after the scene, but extends over that period of 1-3 days. 

To ensure the safety of everyone, the two will agree to a form of outreach as part of aftercare for the scene and during that outreach, report honorably and with integrity any abnormal deviations, bad moods/attitudes, feelings about the scene, misgivings about the scene, and anything else that might be relevant. This also helps with enhancing communication and trust between the two parties and avoid the pitfalls of poor communication or lack of communication after a scene that can lead to toxic gossip and character assassination. 

In the case a negative mood swing occurs and is reported, one will call or meet with the other casually to provide support and counsel as they are able, or help them find someone who can in the instance that they are unable. 

Criticisms Many do not wish to embrace typical aftercare methods. Some would prefer time alone, while others would prefer not be touched at all, and others would like some form of Humiliation or Degradation as aftercare to constitute part of their fantasy. There is no one right way to participate in aftercare, but it is important to negotiate aftercare well before a scene occurs to create mutually beneficial and consensual agreement about how aftercare is to take place