Well here I go again, just some ramblings and thoughts and feelings maybe some advice too because God knows I need it.
Me being new to the this lifestyle, inpatient and wanting everything to happen right away, even though I know patience and time are required to start something as a total lifestyle change, or is just the kink I want?I know for sure that I definitely Want the kink,:) ,Who doesn't.
But I know by rushing into something that it may not turn out so good, it could be dangerous as well. Or it could turn out to be something wonderful just what I needed. I am not sure, I know that A good rule in life is to air on the side of caution.I think. lol
It is just all confusing because I am impatient oh, and what what I want when I want it. I am a middle-aged man oh, so the offer to engage are not really forthcoming. And I understand.
This brings me to another thing, in my rush and inpatients to embrace all of this, I was told to go to Munch's , which I have been going to some more. The first one I was scared to death and couldn't go in. The second one I was still scared but I went in and enjoyed myself immensely.
I signed up for a group, lifestyle explorers, which is swingers club, from my understanding, what got my attention was they had a event listed, A BDSM event invite only. There are going to be very few people there. 3 couples and 5 single men, I do not know any of these people, and I'm anxious and nervous about going, NOT TO MENTION the fear of rejection,but on the other hand , it could be a lot of fun.
My first impression and thought is ,if it doesn't feel good in your gut dont do it., or if you have to think about don't.
Anyways it is in few days and I will pray on it to my higher power and go from there. I will definitely write about the outcome on my next blog.
Once again the blog that I have been riding helps me with my thoughts and will be in nice record for me to go back over down the road.
:)