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10 months ago. Sunday, May 4, 2025 at 11:03 AM

Mine…

As you tell me to remove my clothes and stand naked and exposed before you

 


Mine…

As you tell me to kneel before you

 


Mine…

As you force yourself between my lips claiming my mouth

 


Mine…

As the tears flow and I choke

 


Mine…

As you use my mouth for your pleasure

 


Mine…

As you tell me to get onto the bed

 


Mine…

As you fill my ass with the plug that you chose earlier

 


Mine…

As you run your chosen tool over my body, marking my bottom and legs

 


Mine…

As you pinch and twist my nipples, drawing fresh tears from my eyes

 


Mine…

As you ask me who my pussy belongs to

 


Mine…

As you use me for your pleasure

 


Mine….

As you give me your cum as a reminder of ownership and reward

 


Mine…

As you slap my face to bring me back into myself

 


Mine…

As you sit with me until my shaking stops

 


Mine…

As you kiss me gently and tell me that I’m your good girl

10 months ago. Wednesday, April 30, 2025 at 6:12 PM

Ugh……it’s been 24 hours. They are saying it could be anywhere from 5-7 days to get it restored. All the food in my fridge and deep freeze has to be thrown out.

Good thing I was able to pick up extra batteries today.

10 months ago. Sunday, April 27, 2025 at 6:04 PM

1. I am not a natural submissive. I have submissive tendencies. But to the right person I will submit naturally.  And I think I could be a slave in the right dynamic, which I never really considered. 
2. I just made my longest drive ever (almost 6 hours) to get dominated and used. 🚙
3. You can absolutely have fun and laugh in the middle of a scene. 
4. When asked how it feels when a butt plug is inserted, “ohhh that’s a bigger one” is apparently not the right answer. 
5. It’s good to really do a deep dive into the words and phrases you use to avoid confusion, and sometimes it reveals a potential fun opportunity for the future. 
6. I am not a masochist, and yet I somehow am wishing I had been beaten more this weekend (yeah that one really has me confused). 
7. My friend has a great deal of patience with me and I really and truly appreciate that. That being said I think he keeps a list in his head of things I should be punished for the next time I see him. 😬 
8. You cannot over exaggerate the need to hydrate especially when dealing with a pleasure Dom.💧
9. I really really like wearing a hood during scenes. 
10. I’m already wishing it was time to see him again. 

11 months ago. Friday, April 4, 2025 at 7:24 PM

My body is just a vessel
A bag of skin and bones, muscles and tendons and organs
I have fat and cellulite and scars
I have a toe on my right foot that is a bit funny
Scoliosis in my back
And medical conditions that make some days harder than others
And to some that is all they see….my body, with all of its flaws and scars, something to use and toss away like last nights leftovers when they are done with it

But dig deeper
Engage my mind and my soul
Ask me about my wants and needs
Watch my eyes sparkle with mischief and glow with love
Celebrate my highest accomplishments and support me in my lowest failures
Allow me to feel soft and safe and secure
And my body will sing and ache for you
My mind will crave your words, your time and your touch.

In doing so you will own something infinitely more valuable than my body

You will own me

1 year ago. Wednesday, March 5, 2025 at 2:25 PM

Message here briefly for a couple of days

Asks to go to another site to chat - no

Then asks to swap kinky photos - no

When the request is denied you get blocked

 

Don’tcha just love it? 


Thank goodness my bar for what is acceptable communication and behavior is set pretty high. 

 

1 year ago. Tuesday, March 4, 2025 at 6:23 PM

I need someone to help me quiet my raging mind. To help take me to a peaceful place. To stop the thoughts that are swirling on an endless loop. To help me center myself. To let me lay my head in their lap while they stroke my hair and tell me I’m a good girl and remind me to breathe. 

1 year ago. Thursday, February 20, 2025 at 6:32 AM

To the 21 yrar old that just messaged me and told me that he would ”still let me eat his ass” as his introductory message.

Oh you poor delusional young thing……..do better please.

I do know there are people here who would take him up on that and respond to his message and you do you boo. 

However I am not that person and you would be honored to have me. If you want a quality woman or sub that is not the way to go about it. 


I hope these young, self-proclaimed “doms” do their research before they do something dangerous. And yes I intentionally put Dom in lower case and parentheses. As to differentiate them from the men who have actually done the work to earn the title. 

Anyway, have a good morning everyone. 

1 year ago. Friday, February 14, 2025 at 3:50 PM

It’s Friday February 14th - otherwise known as Valentine’s Day. And while I know that it shouldn’t be a day to just celebrate couples, it’s hard not to feel sad. I know my family loves me. And a few very close friends. But I feel like I’m missing something in my life that only a partner can provide. I have a loneliness deep inside that aches to feel that I am loved by one special person. 

Yes I’m wallowing in self pity right now. And if anyone asked me I’d pretend to be happy and smile. I know the feeling will pass. But days like today are hard and I feel like I could disappear and nobody would notice or care. 

1 year ago. Saturday, February 1, 2025 at 5:23 PM

A confused submissive came before a wise Master who adored her. She felt that to submit to Him would mean she would open her heart to unbearable pain should He ever leave her. She hungered for Him and needed Him, but was ready to walk away in panic.

The gentle Master knelt her before Him and started a tale of love and devotion. As she looked up at Him His arms began to widen and open like a large tree, which stretches its branches to the sky.

At that moment the Master appeared rooted to the floor and His impressive size towered above her like a giant tree. Then He began to speak...

"I'm here for you"... now and always no matter how far time and space takes us. Whether you walk away from Me today or you stay and serve Me I will not turn from you. I am as patient as time itself; I will take not from you unless you give freely and completely of yourself, but I give onto you regardless-- for My love is unconditional...

Like the olive tree that can both feed you and shade you, I am there seemingly eternal to your short life on this earth. If you need My fruit to feed your hunger I will give you all the fruit you need. If your skin grows dry and loses its luster, the oil from My fruit will restore it and make it glisten. When you need comfort My leaves will gently caress your face with the slightest breeze.

When you need discipline My branches will correct you when the wind blows strong. If you just need My shade to protect you from the sun, My branches will shade and protect you. If you need warmth at night My fallen branches will fuel the fire to keep you warm and safe. If you need a refreshing breeze My leaves will fan you and cool you.

You are My gardener. When you submit to Me, you tend that which keeps Me vibrant and full of life. When you kneel under Me and till the soil, you give breath to My roots. When you water Me, My sap flows strong through Me raising My limping branches. When you soil yourself collecting fertilizer with your bare hands, you strengthen and humble Me with your devotion.

Although My life will go on, Life would not be the same without you. Your dedication and unconditional care for Me keeps Me vibrant and nurtures My very core. The sustenance and protection I give you seems little reward for your servitude. Still the gardener serves the tree from her heart and the tree in return gives to her heart all that He can!

I am planted firmly on the ground and cannot follow you if you walk away from Me....

But be assured I will survive. One hundred years later and two of your lifetimes; I will still be there, waiting for "you" in the same spot to offer you all that I do now.

Stay with Me and be My gardener. You cannot get lost in Me for we are complementary to each other. I am your devotion, and you give meaning to My existence. Apart we live life and survive; together we bloom eternally!

As the Master finished His last words the sub cried herself to sleep at His feet. That night, He stood planted there like the Olive tree offering her His unconditional love and protection as she slept. As she would tend to Him with her devotion the next day... and everyday thereafter!

-Author Unknown

 

 This is my wish, my desire, my dream, my hope. To find this would give me the greatest pleasure, peace, strength and comfort. 

1 year ago. Saturday, January 25, 2025 at 8:13 AM

I didn’t realize what I was missing until I had it and lost it

 

I miss the interactions

 

The daily check in

 

The tasks

Having a sounding board


Knowing someone cared

 

The comfort

 

The security

 

The feeling of being owned and protected 

 

And yes the kinky sex stuff. 

 

I learned so much about myself with the experience.  And I made a promise to myself that I will do better if I ever find that again.