Shadows Den

I want to share this with you all and I hope that you do not look down upon me as a Dom for what I am about to share. This will not be one of my normal posts other then it comes from what is inside of my heart as all my others do.

I will start this out by saying yes I am a Dom and yes in the past I have been a sub but I am by no means a switch. My past is my past and it gave me lessons that I learned which help me be a better Dom I feel it allowed me a insight into the mind of a sub.

I am above being a Dom a Human Being with feelings and emotions that I normally can keep bottled up and contained inside never allowing anything to show through my outer shell even when sad mad happy or excited it all stayed contained inside of me never bleeding through to the surface it made me a hell of a person to play poker with because nothing ever showed there was no tells I was always away of everything I did and showed no smile crossed me lips and twinkle in my eye nothing it was as if they was facing a dead man. This scared many people I have met in life and was even told I was a scary son of a bitch when first met but once the person got to know me they seen I was not the monster they felt thought me to be. When I was in collage and I was 20 years old a group of guys made up a story about me because I was so cold quiet and kept to myself never speaking to others around me sitting alone. The story went that I was a Ax murder on the run from the law and I had killed my family with a Ax and was not hiding in collage. After a few weeks of being in collage one of the guys because a friend of mine and he told me the story and gave me the nickname of Ax. I asked him do you still think that I am the person you thought I was? He smiled and said no your a really nice guy we had you all wrong.

I WILL NOT MENTION MY subs name even though she is not on here it is a matter of respect for her even though what she done does not deserve it I still feel the need to show it.

Fast forward 31 years to the events of this past Saturday May 21st 2022. I woke up excited and happy and it showed on my face even my coworkers noticed I was smiling and they remarked that they had never seen me smile and be happy in the almost 3 years of working with me. I told them I was happy because my sub was coming to see me for the first time in real life and I was going to get to spend time with her (I have been alone in real life for now over 9 years to be exact 9 years 3 months and 8 days at that time) so to say I was excited is a understatement to say the least. I came on the computer to tell her good morning (she was a late riser never up before 11am myself work required me to clock in at 4am so I would wake and dress by 3:45am I live 2 blocks from my work) I slept in a bit this day I did not get up until 7am got dressed and went to the gas station I worked at as a opener to get myself a Monster and a bit of breakfast as I did not feel like cooking. Then I come on and wait to see my sub I jump on discord where we liked to talk on camera and I see her come on extra early (I thought something is wrong she said her father had a heart attack like event and had went to the ER so my mind raced what is going on is her dad ok) so I message her asking what is going on is everything ok are you still coming to see me today? I get the message that deep down inside I knew was coming but denied it until I read it. The message read she would not be coming to see me and would no longer be with me as she was scared of her feelings for me and that I was to good to be true there had to be something wrong with me cause no one was at kind or as loving as I was. Before I could say a word I was blocked (less then 60 second).

Last night Tuesday May 24th 2022 I went to bed early was not feeling well and have not been since last weeks events. I lay in bed and I realized I was a Broken Dom no longer in control of my emotions or feelings. Something inside of me is now broken I do not know what, I do not know how to even go about fixing that which is now broken. I felt and still feel as if I am the only person upon the face of the Earth a feeling I would not wish upon anyone. I feel like a ship lost at sea in a storm of emotions with a broken mast up able to control his course tossed about at the whim of the waves. I have never felt this before it frightens me. I know in time I will regain the control I once had over my emotions and feelings. Till that time I am a Broken Dom nothing more.

I post this not for pity or sympathy but maybe to help others understand that a Dom \ Domme are at the end of the day Humans with emotions and feelings as well.

Sincerely

ShadowWolfDancer Broken Dom

Ok so the other day I went to Walmart (Asda for those in the UK not sure about rest of the world sorry) I was buying some supplies for a visit that was going to happen but never did long story short version is I was dumped the day before was suppose to come see me anyway.

I grab my shopping cart (Trolly) and I am making my way around the store first stop Bird seed (I got a parrot she needs food) then I swing over and buy new pillows, underwear (See story before), bought flowers (it was mothers day cant forget mom), beard oil and beard cream, Body spray, towels and wash cloth, Carabiner clips, wallet, rope, Giant Stuffed Teddy Bear, Lube, KY Yours and Mine pack of lube, Condoms (2 boxes), night time cough syurp, tooth ache meds to numb (I grind my teeth in my sleep and causes pain I do it so hard), underarm deodorant, Hair bands, Hot Pink Long Dog Leash,bottle of Coconut rum and a can of Monster Energy Drink. I refuse to use the self checkout I am not on the walmart pay roll so why would I work for them. This cashier starts ringing things up and is looking at me like WTF kind of crazy shit is going on at his house do I wanna know maybe or maybe not. Is the impression I was getting from her. I had to fight the urge to say shit I forgot the Tarp, and Adult Diapers I will be right back.

Words of Advice when buying new underwear.

I once bought 2 packs of underwear (wore Bikini Briefs) like them they are cooler in summer then my normal Boxer Briefs. Get home and think I am shower and put on new Undies and feel good. Shower and put on my undies not paying attention I bought THONGS. So I am like im not taking them back that is just ewww no so I will try to wear the things. How in the hell do you women wear then things??? I looked like a fat shaved Baboon Picking fleas from my ass  the entire time I tried to wear them things.

The just the other day I go and bought Bikini Briefs and did not look real close that the size they was 50-52 (I wear a 40-42) got them home and thought My god my ass is big it aint that big is it? tried them on and I am call them my Sex underwear cause I wear them and take 2 steps and they are off and I am ready for action.

Hope this made you laugh today because everyday you should have some bit of laughter in your life.

The phone ringing echos through the house as she rushes to answer it. Her small delicate hand grasps the receiver and her voice breathy whispers out "Hello" on the other end she hears a familiar man's voice who says "Did I wake you?" she replies with a soft no you did not wake me Daddy the man says then you must have been being naughty since it took you so long to answer the phone, before she could reply he says I will be home in 20 minutes make sure your ready. Softly she replies yes Daddy I will be ready for our date. She remembered this date very well it was seared into her brain. This was their anniversary and every year he would take her out and do something special. This year they were to go out and have a nice meal together in a small dimly lit restaurant that he had reserved the table a month in advance she knew he would be expecting her to have her dress and make up flawless. She could feel the excitement building inside of her as she paced the floor and waited for him. She checked her self in the mirror one last time as she hears the door to the house open, she hurried to meet him. She wrapped her arms around him and hugged him tightly. He took a step back and said let me see you, she smiled and turned slowly as she felt his eyes go over every inch of her body she could feel her self growing wet. Her gaze met his as he smiled approvingly at her, there is just a couple things you are missing my Pussycat as he pulls out a small bag and hands it to her there is something in there I wish for you to wear tonight. As she looks in the bag she sees a pair of lace panties she smiles sweetly at him as he hold out his closed hand this goes with them, she reaches out with her hand open and palm up he places a small silver vibrator in her hand. There is a small pocket in the panties this is to go into and you are to wear this tonight there are fresh batteries and I have the remote control for the vibrator. She turns to walk away to change her panties and he says no you change here in front of me. Her face goes flush as he gazes upon her. She slips the panties off which are damp from excitement already and slips on the gift from him as she adjusts them he hits the button causing her to flinch as the vibrator buzzes to life against her clit, well we must test it out before we leave right? She nods softly as the vibrations sent waves of pleasure through her body causing her to become more damp she thinks to her self this is going to be a fun exciting night but it will be a long night out. One more thing for you before we go. I need the world to know that you belong to me Pussycat and I bought this for you to wear not only tonight but for all time. He pulls out a small silver paw print from his pocket on a black silk ribbon and instructs her to turn and lift her hair so he may place it upon her neck. She does as he says and he places it upon her neck then kisses her neck tenderly sending shivers through her body rivaled only by the vibrator. He offers her his arm and says now we are ready to go out to dinner. He opens the door for her, as they walk to the car she hangs on his arm holding it tightly as if she feels she might fall off a cliff if she loosens her grip. He opens the car door for her and takes her hand helping her into the car as he has done countless times before. Closing the door she watches him as he moves to the drivers side to enter the car her eyes pass over the figure of him lit by the street light. At the restaurant he helps her out of the car taking her tiny hand in his and she once more clings to his arm as they approach the door he reaches out and opens it placing his other hand in the small of her back guiding her through the door. They are lead to a table in a corner away from other guests, where they order their meal. While waiting for the meal to arrive they speak of their day, he reaches out and take her hand into his as he hits the button causing her to gasp slightly she had forgotten about the panties. He smiled a cheeky smile as she blushed wondering if others around could hear her gasp or the buzz of the vibrator. The meal was soon served as they ate they talked and gazed lovingly into each others eyes as if they were the only two souls left in the entire world. He hit the button a few more times during the meal to see her reaction which gave him great joy. She asked to be excused from the table he stood up as he was taught from a young age being a Gentleman from the South. He noticed a small spot on the chair she was sitting in while she was gone he quickly changed the seat with another as not to cause her to be embarrassed He felt a hand upon his shoulder and neck and knew she was back, so he stood up and once more pulled her chair out so she could sit. They held hands she blushes and whispers your having to much fun with your toy Daddy he started grinning cause he knew she was wet.

The drive home she reaches over and places her hand high up on his inner thigh feeling a slight bulge in his hands. She says Oh my Daddy what do we have here? She unzips his pants allowing his semi erect cock to spring forth as she leans over and softly kisses the head it jumps as if it has a life of its own. She knew he would be distracted with driving to stop her not that he would and he sure couldn't hit the button so now he was the one at her mercy. She traces her tongue around the head before slowly sliding her mouth all the way down to the base sucking every inch of his cock deep into her mouth and down her throat. He gasped at the feeling of her tongue and mouth wrapped around his growing cock as she bobbed her head up and down he fought for control of the car and his cock both. He knew he would loose one of the battle for control and he could not afford to wreck the car. She moved her head ever faster sucking harder on his cock until he exploded into her mouth she fought to swallow ever drop of his cum as he spasamed with each shot down her throat. Her mouth full and swallowing as fast as she could she still dribbled a bit on to her chin. She took out a napkin and wiped off her chin and looked at him with a smile that seemed to light up the car. Softly she whispered I have been thinking of doing that all day for you. I almost pretended to drop something in the restaurant so I could crawl under the table and do it right there no one would have known because of it being dark and the table cloth hanging down all they would have seen is you gasping and moaning. He took his eye off the road for a second and smiled Your a naughty little Pussycat you know very naughty I may have to punish you when we get home for what you just did without my permission. Her pussy quivered at the thought of what would happen when they got home.

The house came into sight and the thoughts of what was to come built to the point that she could not contain it anymore, a soft whimper escaped her lips and a smile slowly creep across his lips. He knew what was about to happen both excited and scared her. As they walked inside he took her by her arm and lead her into the bedroom sitting down upon the chair he commanded her to undress slowly for him. She did as she was ordered to do slowly seductively as his eyes took in every inch of her skin as it was exposed. She danced to music only she could hear her pussy growing more wet as her skin felt the cool air and his lustful gaze upon her. Her dress fell to the floor as she stepped out of it now with just her lace bra and the panties he had been playing with all night thankfully the batteries had died from use. She turned her back and reached behind her unfastening her bra letting the straps slip off and her perk firm breast slip free of the bra as she looked over her shoulder with a small smile at him knowing she was turning him on with her strip tease. He looked on and nodded with a approving smile. She turned covering her breasts and slink toward him as she drew close enough he grasped her by her waist and slipped his fingers inside of the waistband of the panties and slipped them off of her hips. The scent of her now aching wet pussy filled his nose as his cock grew harder and strained against his pants she saw this in the dim light of the room. He pulled her down to straddle his lap facing him he leans over and licks each nipple sending shivers through her body as he cupped her ass in his rough hands. Her mind swam with thoughts of what she thought would happen and wonder has he forgotten what she has done in the car or is this part of the torture that is to come? She could feel his stiffening cock growing harder and pushing against her as she started to grind her naked aching wet pussy against him.

He stopped her and made her stand up and said you know the position assume it. She felt her self growing flush with excitement and fear as she moved quickly and quietly to the end of the bed. She spread her legs and placed her hands upon the posts of the bed she knew the time had come to pay for what she had done in the car. He placed a spreader bar between her ankles and fastened it to each ankle with a small brass pad lock to which he had the only key. He then took her small delicate wrists and placed fur lined leather cuffs on them and locked them with a matched set of brass pad locks. He raised her hands one at a time and attached the cuffs to silver chains that hung from the top of the posts forcing her to stand on her tip toes. Placing a bone shaped rubber gag in her mouth and fastening is behind her head. He leans over and kisses her neck softly as his hand slides down her stomach to her pussy rubbing letting a pair of finger slide inside over her clit as she struggles against the restraints and a soft whimper escapes her lips through the gag. He blindfolds her so her sight is also gone now as well her hearing is heightened She sees nothing but heard everything is more detail and with such clarity She hears him moving and the sound she knows all to well the sound of a lid being opened on what they have come to call their "Toy box" she knew what was contained in here both good and bad pleasure and pain. Her mind raced and reeled with what was being taken out to be used. Her lips began to quiver not knowing what the next second would bring.

His voice startled her next to her ear, it was only a whisper but in the excitement and wondering it seemed to boom like a cannon. He whispered I love you so much my Pussycat I do this for your own good you need to learn self control which you clearly did not show tonight on the way home. While I did enjoy it you should have asked permission before doing that. I have yet another surprise for you that you do not know we have he chuckles slightly as she squirms. She tries to ask what it is but with the gag it comes out as a muted mumble, he replies your about to find out what the new toy is as soon as I get it plugged in. He plugs in the new toy touches it to her inner thigh causing a slight electrical shock to jump to her body. He whispers in her ear we have a violet wand which I can adjust up or down in power depending on what I feel you deserve. He touches it once more this time to her nipples causing her to jump. We will save that for another time. Soon the room goes quiet and she wonders if he is still in the room with her. She soon feels the cold of a ice cube on her nipples making them grow harder and wetter as it melts. He places nipple clamps with tiny bells on each nipple squeezing them tightly as she moves the bells let out little chimes. Then comes the punishment she has been dreading. He pushes in a cat tail butt plug in her ass causing her to gasp through the gag. He uses the slapper with the word Slut on it across her bare quivering ass causing the bells to jingle. At first the strikes were soft and playful she knew his way and knew it would only build and get harder with each strike until her ass was covered with the word slut in welts. She could feel her pussy growing wetter with each stroke her inner thigh was soaking wet by the end of it.

He unfastened her and help her quivering body lay down upon the cool satin sheets that covered the bed. Laying beside her softly he stroked her skin and praised her telling her she was a good girl and he was proud to have her in his life. She had never felt so loved or cared for in her entire life as she had at this moment in time. The stinging of her tender red ass seemed to fade away with his very touch and the sound of his voice. She knew his words were true and he felt such love for her as no one had ever before in her entire life. She knew when they played as they just had she was safe and would never come to any harm although if others were to have seen it they would have thought of it more then likely as abuse but she felt the love in each and every stroke of the slapper he used and knew the marks would be care for by him. She felt such pride in having such a man love her and she felt the greatest love and respect for him he could have ever felt for anyone. She turned her head and looked at him and said I love you more then words could ever say. He smiled and whispers back to her I love you too Pussycat I love you too. With this he leaned over and softly kissed her lips with this kiss the world around them seems to melt away until all that was left was their two hearts racing together in time with each other seeming to beat as one.

His hand caressed her back softly as he watched her every move as if to study it, slowly sliding his hand down over the small of her back she sighed softly with contentment and pleasure. Softly as if his hand had turned into a feather he caressed her ass where the welts were slowly fading listening to her gasp slightly at his touch. He asks do they still hurt my love? She replies with no sir it is your touch it is as if you touched my skin once more with that new toy the one you said is a Violet Wand. He smiles and asked her what she thought of the new toy. She softly replied she enjoyed it but not to make a pun it was a bit of a shock at first she confessed she really loved it when he touched her nipples with it because it felt as if someone had almost pinched them but not at the same time the feeling was hard to explain it was not unpleasant she admitted to enjoying it almost more then the nipple clamps. She asks is it your turn for pleasure now Sir? He smiled and said my pleasure already happened when we was in the car remember? She blushed a bit remembering how brash she was on the ride home with him. He said but I think we can have more fun yet before we go to bed. She raised to her hands and knees and asked permission to undress him which he granted. First she removed his shirt unbuttoning it and kissing his chest looking up into his eyes for his approval a smile drew across his lips and she knew he approved. She then proceeded to unbutton and unzip his pants allowing his cock to spring forth like a jack in the box to which she giggle a little and said oh my Sir someone seems to be ready for more action already. Sliding his pants the rest of the way off and laying them with his shirt upon the chair. She crawls back onto the bed on her hands and knees looking at him with a smile upon her face. Her tail still firmly in her ass brushing her thighs as she crawls across the King Size bed. My oh my he replies you sure are a horny little Pussycat tonight. She giggles and nods without a single word. She looks into his eyes as if to ask his permission to straddle him. He does not speak a single word only a smile once more. She knows this is his approval as she straddles him reaching between her legs and taking a hold of his throbbing hard cock and guiding it into her still soaking wet aching pussy. As the head of his cock pushed in they both let out a slight gasp him because of the tight wet hole and the head that met the head of his cock and her because of the feeling of his swollen member forcing its way inside of her. Slowly she slides all the way to the base until his cock is fully inside of her. Feeling as if she is being split in two from the girth of his member she slowly starts to ride it up and down while watching his eyes. His hands on her hips to control her pace and rhythm not to fast nice and slow enjoying the moment and the feeling they are sharing. Her back arching her hands on his lower thighs as she strains to take him ever deeper inside. Soft moans start to slip from her up until now relatively quiet lips as she starts to move and gyrate faster and faster feeling her build to a orgasm. His hips start to thrust harder and move in time with her as he feels his self starting to climax as well. Soon they were both climaxing together. She could feel him spilling what seemed like cups of cum into her waiting greedy pussy and he could feel her pussy contracting as if milking his cock for all of its juices. She collapsed upon his chest and lay there with his arms around her holding her and protecting her. This was a night that neither of them would soon forget.

Do not mistake my Silence.

Do not mistake my silence for lack of caring.
Do not mistake my silence for lack of hearing.
Do not mistake my silence for lack of sight.
Do not mistake my silence for for weakness.
Do not mistake my silence for for sleep.
Do not mistake my silence for lack of compassion.
Do not mistake my silence for for anything other then what it is Silence.
My Silence allows me to take in everything around me.

Shadows

I sit silently in the shadows, unseen unmoving, silently watching and waiting.
My eyes are sharp and no movement escapes my gaze. Her slightest movement is tracked by my eyes.
My ears are pricked for the slightest sound, her heart racing her breathing all amplified in my ears.
My nose smells the air the fresh dew that fills the air, her scent her perfume her fear knowing she is being watched but not from where.
She knows I am there yet now where.
My heart races with excitement knowing what is to happen.
The animal side watches and waits for the perfect time to leap forth and claim my prize, the human side trembles with fear and excitement.
I know she will soon be helpless in my grasp.
I will soon claim her as mine and protect and defend her from all others.
Till then I watch and wait in my Shadows.

Unseen Eyes

I come to softly upon the night breeze, and gaze upon you with unseen eyes.
I watch over you and protect you as you sleep.
The soft whisper you hear upon the night breeze is me softly calling out to you.
The touch you feel upon your skin that rouses you from your sleep if my touch.
The presence you feel in the room with you is my spirit gazing upon you with unseen eyes.
The kiss you feel so gentle upon your lips is my lips kissing you while you sleep peacefully.
The hand you feel upon you as you sleep is my hand softly caressing your skin.
I come to you as softly and quietly as a feather upon a warm nights breeze and gaze upon you with unseen eyes.

Alone

Alone I sit silently in my room watching the world pass by.
In my room there is almost everything I could ever want.
The only thing missing in my room is you.
My room has no walls, no doors, no locks.
My room is a place where I am truly safe from the world outside.
My room is only as large as a single thought, yet there is a world of wonder inside of my room that most can only dream of seeing.
A world you may one day see if you prove yourself worth to gain entrance to my room.
Till the day I find the one I seek I will sit alone in my room watching the world pass me by.

Tears and Razor Blades

I sit here in the darkness as you left me alone with no light and no hope.
You took more then the ring I once gave you as a token and pledge of my love.
You took my heart, soul, spirit and will to live.
You left me with nothing just a empty hollow shell that was once a man sits here in the darkness with nothing left.
I feel the tears sting my eyes as the blade slips thought my skin with little effort.
All that you left me was tears and razor blades, soon there will not even be tears left as I feel the blood quickly drain from my wrists.
The sirens are growing louder and death wraps me up in its icy embrace.
It wont be long now my vision is starting to grow dim. The sirens wont make it in time to save me as I see a light calling me forth to..........

I wrote that years ago when I was in a very dark place and saw nothing but darkness around me. I did not do what I wrote but the thought was in my head. What stopped me you might ask what stopped me is a voice that said Why should you end your life and allow her to live her life knowing that you are gone and what about the pain that it would cause your family knowing you are gone.

The reason I wrote that is because I had just had a woman whom I loved greatly and saved her from being abused and rented a house and paid 6 months cash rent in advance so we had a place to live Her, I and her kids who I loved as if was my own. She packed up after a month and went back to the same man who was abusing her.