All my life i have been submissive to people but underneath my submission i am scared. People have no respet for me and they know they can push me. i am always fightened that someone will take me somewhere i cannot go. This has rarely happened but it is always a poassability. This fear runs beneath whatever i am doing to serve someone. Truth is, i need to be scared. it parallels my feeling of disgust for mysef as i obey unreasonabl commands from my superiors.
People take pleasure in demaning things from me they would never demand of a decent normal person. They demand it of me because they think less of me, and they enjoy having a person so desperatly low, they can laugh at me bending to their will.
People kbow i get sexually aroused when i am submissive and the hotter i get the more they can demand. Finally, when i have satifying their whims, they kick me out, knowing i am still in heat laughing at my situation. It is not easy being submissive. But i cannot help mysef.
