I guess it's really been a rough month for me since I've last seen E in person. I've been busier than I want to be, but life is that way sometimes and when you're long distance, it makes it tough. We stay in touch though, text every day, call quite a bit, etc. I'm still his slave, my pussy still belongs to him, and I love his guidance, but I'm DYING for some in person slave time. I need my Master's hands on me.
Last night he was there for me. My elderly parents live in Florida along the Gulf Coast, south of Tampa and north of Sarasota. Not on an island thankfully but close to the water. They decided they weren't leaving, and last night it looked like they were in for a direct hit.
So I went for a hike, hoping I'd feel better. I did until I hit the deer on my way home. I was only doing about 30, and the airbag did not go off due to the angle I think. Bumper is busted up and hood a little dented but I made it home.
I sent E a pic and told him what happened. He was already aware that I was stressing about my parents. He called, then had to call me back. In the meantime I got the dogs out, put the ducks away, heated up some dinner, etc. Lol I had texted right after I got home and included the "Sir," but I forgot a little later. He texted me wondering if I needed a pre-emptive "punishment" spanking lol (I'm still in my grace period until Friday) and I was like sorry Sir, not doing well, had a cry.
I called him once I got into bed and he was like it's not that bad, not a lot of damage, etc. I was like I'm just tired, I've been working SO HARD at all this stuff trying to keep up with the mowing, hike, eat good food, take care of myself and my animals and now this happens and I'M TIRED!! I sniffled and said I'm all "whinypants" tonight lol. He gently agreed.
E was encouraging though, pointed out that I'll most likely get a rental car for my trip this weekend and possibly my trip to Florida depending on when I can get my car in to be fixed. That will save wear & tear on my car. He also sent me some updates showing that the storm path was moving south, trying to help ease my mind.
I tried to point out my positives. I'm almost done with the duck pen - I'm leaving for my parents house on 10/8 and it has to be done before then so they're (relatively) safe-ish while I'm gone. They currently free roam around the yard all day. Once I'm done with the pen, I can slow down a bit because the other stuff doesn't have deadlines.
I said I caught myself stress-snacking lol and put the darn crackers away. And didn't beat myself up because as E said to me, the whole weight loss thing is a marathon, not a sprint. Lol he said that he knows I'm going to keep going and keep losing because I'm so damn stubborn. And reminded me that I need rest to lose as well, I've been going full out for a while now. But soon, I will rest.
We chatted after that about random stuff and I told him the story about when my ex's ex-girlfriend in Iowa wanted to come down and visit with her boyfriend. Telling that one had me laughing my ass off, it was such a special kind of awkward and awful (FYI wigs and roller coasters don't mix.) E enjoyed it too :)
E encouraged me to go to bed early, and I crabbed a little when I had to let old Sasha outside again - darn dogs will expect a treat again since someone went outside lol. E said rightly that it's my fault for feeding (ha) into that behavior. I said yeah, yeah, I know. He said hey, is it good for YOU to eat right before bed? I TRIED to say yes but started giggling. He said did you just try to brat and fail??? I said yup, apparently. He laughed at me and said someone else must be rubbing off on me. Lol I think it was just the night.
E was really sweet to me last night and I appreciate him helping me get through it. This is what a good Master does, I tell him I'm struggling and he knows what I need. In this case I needed positive thoughts, distraction, and a little firmness :)
Can't wait to see him. Can't wait to serve him and be used by him. Can't wait to be on my knees, looking up at him with all my trust and submission shining in my eyes on Friday evening.