I'm lucky.
My childhood was pretty good. No great traumas, my dad was an angry asshole a lot but I wasn't beaten or molested by anyone.
My 20's were a black hole of depression. I don't remember much to be honest. Depression runs on my mom's side. I dropped out of college at 20. Acquired some sexual trauma from a coercive relationship I couldn't figure out how to walk away from before it damaged me. I got married and divorced a couple of times to losers. Had shitty self-esteem and worked crappy, low-paying jobs like factory, warehouse, and transportation work.
I came out of the depression at the age of 32 with an unshakeable sense of optimism that holds up to this day, along with an unwillingness to hang on to the bad stuff. Even my mother said I was a different person.
I spent my 30's like I should have spent my 20's - falling in love with the bad boy (don't do this, prison visiting day is humiliating for visitors and just sucks all around,) and dating various men that didn't really do it for me.
I chose not to have kids. My sister was a single mom of 3 and her babies were my babies. You know what I mean, those of you who have done the same. I didn't meet anyone in my 30's that I wanted to have kids with and I sure as fuck wasn't doing it on my own.
My 40's I spent with "asshat" or "twatnozzle" as my Master likes to call him. On the good side, I got my ass back in school and got a couple of degrees. I worked my way up in the company I work for now and I make a decent living. Sure I have bills, but I can pay them.
Twatnozzle got scary as I was divorcing him this spring but that trauma didn't stick with me - see the "unshakeable optimism" section. I chose to move on.
I got breast cancer, actually they caught it at the pre-cancer stage. Went through what felt like a zillion scans, had a chunk cut out of my boob, had 3 weeks of radiation treatments. All while dealing with scary twatnozzle. And working full time. Was lots of fun. Okay not so much.
I've faced my mortality and admitted my faults. I understand that I'm not special. I'm just a person, one of billions on our planet. I'll never be famous. The world won't mourn when I die someday. A few people might.
But I'm okay with all of that. I'm happy that I've been so lucky.