I love talking to my Master. E always has good things to say, makes me laugh, and makes me think.
Last night he called me. I was cooking and couldn't text very well so he decided to ring me instead. "You'll get a giggle out of this," he said, and proceeded to tell me about a "slave" that sent a message to him on another site expressing her interest. She's on my side of the state. In chatting by email on the site, she mentioned that she's very smart and has 2 Master's degrees. He was like oh that's great, I like smart women, what are your degrees in. She then told him she wasn't going to discuss that, she wanted to hear what he would do with her. Seriously?? Kinda rude and bossy right?
And then she said that she didn't have a car and he would have to come get her. And when she was with someone she stayed for an extended period, she didn't do just weekends.
I was laughing my ass off by this time. I said, you'd show up and she'd probably have like 4 garbage bags full of stuff and a couple of kids in tow lol. We had a laugh, and he said that if he was coming here, he'd be picking up the slave that is pleasant and has made things easy in our relationship 😄 Lol happy little glow from me, but really isn't a slave supposed to be pleasant?
It may sound weird that we talk about this stuff but E and I are friends as well as Master and slave. We have love for each other and chat by text every day, but we aren't IN love with each other. Really I think that's appropriate for my first D/s relationship. I really look up to him, he's a wonderful Master and friend. We will continue to be friends even after our M/s relationship ends. Lol as he says, I still have much to learn so hopefully it's not going to end soon. We THOROUGHLY enjoy our time spent together as you can tell by my writings about our weekends.
And shit I've only been officially divorced for, let's see, 5 months as of November 1st. At this point the thought of getting into something seriously luvvy duvvy gives me fucking hives. I mean it really scares me because I'm so not ready to go there.
E also helps me think through things out loud - we were talking about my weight loss and how that is going. I expressed my happiness with losing 35 pounds so far, but also my feelings about how body positivity is great, but also makes me feel a bit like the odd man out for saying "my fat is no longer healthy and I need to lose it."
I was "fat and healthy" in my 20's and in my 40's (lol I was thinner in my 30's, less stress) but that changed with the breast cancer diagnosis. I don't have any genetic mutations for cancer, and obesity IS a risk factor even though people don't want to think about that. Please consider this people, your "fat and healthy" may not stay that way. Plus I never made peace with the weight, I've always hated it.
I'm a small person, 5'4" and small boned. I have plenty of muscle so I won't be as thin as I was in high school, but a size 8 or 10 is reasonable to shoot for. I reasoned out my plan for the upcoming months with him listening and adding his advice. I haven't been working too hard at losing beyond tracking my calories and doing a ton of exercise and outdoor work.
Now that it's fall and the temps are great but days are getting shorter, I need to change things up a bit so that I keep losing, and I'd like to even kick it up a notch by choosing better foods and eating less pizza lol. So E helped me reason out my plan.
We also talked about locations, about being "entrenched" where we are. My parents are moving back to Iowa to be near my sister and the grandkids, but I really don't want to go north again. I don't like the cold any more after almost 10 years back in Missouri. But I also don't have any family here.
Yes, I have dogs and ducks, but they could all be moved if I really wanted to go somewhere else. I LOVE my place in the country and don't have any desire to move at this time, but I just wanted to think about the possibilities if I was open to relocating eventually, for myself or maybe for a future relationship, who knows? My job is the kind that can be done remotely, so that's a good thing too. Or maybe I find someone local, or maybe someone relocates to be with me? Lol anything is possible, right?
E and I talked for a few hours, as we usually do when we call. Then it was time for bed since work starts early. Our conversations always give me a happy glow. I went to bed smiling.
