Dropping doesn't always mean you can experience it after just a scene.
Sub/top dropping can happen after experiencing such a high high of emotion for a period of time then the crash after that high is over. The drop can last hours, days, even weeks. It depends on the person and the intensity of their emotions during the high.
Dropping is hard.
Dropping is harder alone.
Clinging to the fragility of your mind while you know it's slipping away, you feel the anxiety build knowing you cant stop it, not all the way. Which makes it worse. How can I ask for help if I can't even breath? How can I get myself to my bed or resources to help myself not drop so hard? How can I explain to those who message me, asking where I've been, what I'm doing if I cant even type right let alone see what they are saying.
How can I function if I begin to panic about being so low? With no way to resurface in time for fresh air? How long will this last? will I be here for hours, gasping for a chance to be normal?
So here I'll lay, with my hands clinged to my chest, tears flowing until I become a numbed person on the living floor, able to feel myself again, slowly. Limb by limb, heart beat by heart beat.
