There's nothing more I love than putting on a playlist of sex driven music like the one below, while torturing myself with writing scenes that leave me burning with need and desire, my lips parted, my hands roaming running across my body, squeezing, nails digging into my thighs , as I fight for control over my own pleasure. A delicious sensation of orgasm denial, fills my body, before I'm rising swaying and rolling my hips and body to the music, in nothing but shorts and a tank top, my eyes closing my head falling back as I wrap my own hand around my throat.
The sensation it evokes is sensual, and purely for my own wanton pleasure. Thriving in the knowledge and feeling of how sexy I truly feel without the eyes of another on me judging me, not a care in the world, as I allow my imagination to run wild. Imagining my hands to be an alpha males hands, picturing another primal male watching us, growling and grabbing the arms of the chair he is in, with a heated look of desire and barely restrained control on his features, and in his eyes.
Fuck, my imagination is a sin unto itself. The way I torture myself, a crime, that I keep indulging in over and over again. Sadistic? Maybe....Masochistic? Absofuckinglutely...... There's something to be said about a woman that finds herself to be incredibly alluring and sexy. Have I mentioned how shameless I am in chasing after my own pleasure? In my mind there's nothing wrong in loving myself, in living out the fantasies of my mind through my own touch. It shows that I am a creature of lust and passion. Nothing to hold me back from the new world I have found and created for myself. My journey into self discovery leaves me breathless. I can't describe it well enough. The sensation in learning and diving into the very essence of who I am. A torture, a form of ecstasy, a hidden treasure that I bath in freely. Mmmmmm. yes , I know no shame for sure, in laying my own fantasies and discoveries bare for the world to see. There's something so fucking sexy in being utterly myself. Til next time my lovelies...