If you long for a White Christmas, look to the Gregorian Calendar because it falls on a more likely day to have snow. "The Gregorian calendar is the solar calendar used by most of the world today:"
Hopeless. My wife with ADA is unaware of Christmas and, apparently, 99% of our family. Perhaps one day I will have a normal Christmas when someone moves into my spare room and helps me with caregiving.
When we were young, we never cared whether we knew what we were doing. We just made love.
The history of life on Earth, especially human life, has progressed through many permutations. Some resulted in good, some evil, and some in the middle. I have lived an interesting life. I have no bucket list, so I covet nothing and expect nothing. Heaven and Hell only exist on Earth. When we die, we return to stardust, which will be recycled for as long as there is a Cosmos. You can't take material things with you anyway. The world we are entering is powered by greed more than I have ever witnessed in my life before. It isn't the world I want to live in. What choice do I have? None.
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Hey. What I lack in real life is the ability to experience lucid dreams. Melatonin, vitamin B6*, and a sleep time tea all help with this.
*Taking a combination of melatonin and vitamin B6 is often suggested to potentially improve dream recall, as vitamin B6 can help with memory retention while melatonin regulates sleep cycles, potentially leading to more vivid dreams; however, conclusive scientific evidence on this combination is limited and you should consult a healthcare professional before trying it.
Some dreams are cool, not only those with sex involved: Flying jets, visiting places, time travel, happiness . . . etc. I have a few bad dreams, but the nice ones are much more abundant. For example, helped two men sell red horses and redwood lumber, traveled with them on a train, and helped them sell them,
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I don't think everything in life can be made good again. I doubt that I will ever be happy again. I have experienced too much loss. If Jeanne had died in 2017, I probably would have a new life with a new woman. If I were in prison since then, I would be eager to start again. Watching Jeanne passing slowly by myself (the long goodbye) has really damaged me I fear.
I know you tell me to be positive.
I met a woman who survived the Holocaust in Natzi, Germany. She was polite and cared for my friend, her son, but I never saw her smile - not even once. My experience with Jeanne has lasted longer than that woman's time in a concentration camp, so what would I be like?
No, I can survive as she had, but I do not think I will ever be happy again.
. . . there is an opposite of Santa Clause?
His name is Krampus.
There are supposed to be 8.025 billion (2023) people worldwide. The chance to meet your perfect match has never been better, especially since the world's people are connected as they never have before. Yet there are obstacles to this hopeful meeting: Distance, culture, language, and most of all, the interference created by nefarious perpetrators seeing the situation as a way to get money by fraudulent means.
You can overcome these barriers with the tools available: Auto translators, vetting software, facial identification, reputable websites with safeguards, and travel options that fit a budget.
Do not give up. Keep trying. Learn from your mistakes.
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There is a strange aspect to my personality: I Enjoy the descent into the "Deep and Dark December." When the winter solstice comes and goes, I get a little sad. Maybe I have Druid in my genes. Yes, Druids gather at Stonehenge to celebrate the solstices and equinoxes:
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Since my latest caregiver helper deal fell through, I have a new idea: My new plan to find a caregiver helper is to try to host a legal immigrant who will stay in my guest room, help me, and get a start on US Citizenship. FROM AROUND POLAND OR SCANDIVAIA WOULD BE BEST (family reasons).
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