“The paradox is that the needs of the master are not, in fact, superior to the needs of the submissive. Rather, they share equal importance.” – Kacie Cunningham
Living with intense anxiety, CPTSD, and agoraphobia has always been a challenge for me. There are days when the thought of leaving my home feels insurmountable, and the weight of the outside world seems too heavy to bear. But through the guidance and support of my Masters, I have learned how to face these struggles, step by step.
What Kacie Cunningham’s quote captures so well is the balance of needs between the Master and the slave. It is not about one being more important than the other. It is about mutual respect and understanding. My Masters has always understood my struggles. Sometimes they won’t push me beyond what I’m capable of. They won’t force me into uncomfortable situations where my anxiety might overwhelm me. They give me the space to breathe, to feel safe, and to build the courage to try again when I am ready.
However, there are times when my Masters' dominance is exactly what I need to push through my fears. They know when I am capable of more than I give myself credit for. Their calm, steady authority helps me step out of my comfort zone and face the world, even when every fiber of my being is screaming to stay in. When they guide me, even into situations that seem impossible, it is like they help me break down the walls my anxiety has built.
And every time I do step outside, every time I face the world, no matter how small the step, I feel stronger. The paradox Cunningham refers to in her quote rings true for me. My Masters' needs are important, yes, but my needs are just as significant. It is in the balance between us, in the trust and respect, that I am able to overcome what once seemed like insurmountable obstacles.
With my Masters' guidance, I’m not only able to confront my fears, but I also become better for it, stronger, more resilient, and more capable of navigating a world that once felt too overwhelming to face. Surprisingly now I beg to go outside, and it is all thanks to the love, support, guidance and patience of my Masters.