I want to begin this post by saying something that cannot wait another moment: I am sorry.
From the deepest place in my heart, I apologize for the way I let my temper get the best of me during our recent disagreement. I know that I acted in a way that was unkind, reactive, and hurtful, not just to You, but to the foundation of trust, respect, and love we’ve worked so hard to build together.
In the heat of the moment, I allowed my emotions to take control. Instead of pausing, breathing, or choosing humility, I lashed out. I raised my voice, spoke words that weren’t grounded in truth but in frustration, and let my pride overshadow my submission. That was not the behavior of the kajira I strive to be, not the woman I know You believe in and have nurtured with Your patience, guidance, and Dominance.
This isn’t about justifying my actions, it is about owning them. I didn’t handle myself with the grace or respect that You both deserve, especially during moments of tension when my obedience, softness, and honesty matter most. I recognize that disagreements will happen, but how I respond is a direct reflection of the values You’ve instilled in me, and in that moment, I fell short.
I am not proud of the way I acted. But I am committed to learning from it. I’m committed to doing the inner work, regulating my emotions better, and finding healthier ways to express discomfort or fear without turning it into aggression. I want to show You, not just say, that I understand the weight of my actions, and that I am capable of better.
You both have given me so much, structure, love, safety, correction, and devotion. In return, I want to honor You not just when things are easy, but especially when they’re hard. That is where true growth happens. That is where my submission is tested, and where I must rise.
Thank You for Your patience. Thank You for still choosing to lead me even when I falter. I do not take Your forgiveness for granted, and I do not take this dynamic lightly. You are both worthy of so much more than what I showed You in that moment.
Please accept my apology. Not just in words, but in the changes I will now make to be better for You, for our dynamic, and for myself. With deepest remorse and renewed commitment.