Fair's Poetry

I sit in the quiet patience of a meticulous mind,
Finding the chase of doe and rabbit ridiculous in kind.
To hunt is to hunger yet I do not starve;
Instead I sit in wonder of where you are.

Madam Fairy, full and fair,
I long to meet your gaze and hold it there.
To behold a star walking upon the land,
that is the plan,
to offer adoration, devotion, and all I can,

To watch your eyes glow and flutter in reprieve,
To see you turn toward me choosing to believe,
I want passing glances and midnight rendezvous,
Clasped hands and the aching wish to please you,

I wish to take you, watch you turn in tender disregard,
Forget the world, forget where we stand or who we are,
Lie in kisses and wandering romance beneath the stars,
oh, what it is to dream.

I've realized that I'm the war torn wolf, red eyed and weary,

God, I did not belong in the land of fairies,

I overstayed my welcome and my heart was the price,

Now jaded wolf stares to the sky remembering,

Remembering laughter like song,

The lonely stars stare and try to comfort,

How am I supposed to go forth after this?

To see the world when you tasted honey?

I am so tired,

Of being the broken and unwanted,

To be the kind, and sweet one,

I really don't believe wolves,

Where meant to be a maw of teeth,

But the protector of the innocent,

But now,

Who is protecting me?

Who holds my heart steady?

Where is the fairy who says....

"I got you",

"I want you",

When is it time that the magic....

Finally frees me.

Oh it flows as such with wind and rain,

 

To see them part, and finally wane,

 

Again with colorful rainbow hue,

 

Finally breaking through this blue,

 

I call to you and only hear my echo,

 

Oh, to be alone sipping Prosecco,

 

I wait for nothing and expect its return,

 

To sit again and wish to yearn,

 

To paint words with loving banter,

 

Like seeds in the summer planter,

 

I want growth, I want joy,

 

To play so much with unbroken toy,

 

I want her to see me as future endeavor,

 

Not a pick up or put out down whenever,

 

I want my forevers forever.

 

May you find me.

 

 

 

God, when the air turned blue,

 

She never fucking knew,

 

That's when I got to breath,

 

But to her it was all fleeting,

 

And now I have the price to pray,

 

To have heavy breath on a name,

 

God these lessons keep passing by,

 

And part of me is not ok with that,

 

Feel like Ive lost me,

 

And she cares but not enough to stay,

 

Those bright eyes finally show a predator,

 

Unknowing the cost of goodbye,

 

And again I can only sigh,

 

Prepare for the hard breathing,

 

The tears when looks are away,

 

And wonder what the fuck I did,

 

In past lives for karma debts,

 

Praying and saying out loud,

 

Stay the fuck away,

 

If you have ill intentions,

 

Broken minds,

 

Dont know what you want,

 

Or want an experiment,

 

Im a person not a healing aura,

 

And im one more in love you,

 

To never look at people as people,

 

But potential lessons in disguise,

 

So god if your listening,

 

 

I seek her, who has finally found a dynamic bound,

 

Oh Ma'am, how I have waited for thee,

 

To see what love, could truly be,

 

Where mistakes are forgiven,

 

A place that is not a situation, but live in,

 

Happiness abound with us around,

 

Oh god, hear us, that happy sound,

 

Whose jubilant laughter echos here-after,

 

Blessed is the wise who prays to the crafter,

 

I wish to have bliss, love and sexual reminiscence,

 

Down to my fucking core and essence,

 

I wish to collar,

 

Not hollar,

 

To be chosen and not feel like I'm losing,

 

Tired of lessons and bruising,

 

Tired of looking and perusing,

 

People who are gruesome and oozing,

 

Pride, greed, and all the sins,

 

Not gonna see them as wins,

 

So it begins, the season again,

 

My god where art thou?

 

 

 

 

 

Oh what a privilege it is to be missed,

 

To look on life and bend to reminisce,

 

To wonder if they do the same in kind,

 

Beg for thine time to be rewind,

 

So loving eyes can be seen again,

 

So romantic hearts can again mend,

 

Oh what it is to love with every fiber,

 

Yelling fans and wanting but one subscriber,

 

To walk through life holding hands,

 

Owning lands,

 

Building structure, foundation and roof,

 

Loving little hands, paws and hoof,

 

Picketed fences of an color hue,

 

Picnic kisses under sunshine and blue,

 

And dieing loving one woman,

 

That Hub could be proud of me.

 

 

 

I want to see her pleased, eyes rolled, leaking me,

 

Somewhere between breathless, and carnal being,

 

I want to last in her head, as much as I do in bed,

 

I want her thinking, slinking, and fall to my vibrato,

 

I want her kneeling, tongue out, animatronic auto,

 

Oh to walk in to the house and see that,

 

Coat on rack, pants off, hanging my hat,

 

I want to see her plead, "Sir, use me!",

 

The only way to be, the one she will see,

 

I want to feel what a well toned bottom,

 

Feels like on a bench in autumn,

 

Where she keeps her voice down,

 

To not alert the wild life around,

 

God I just want one to play,

 

That is forever and never go away.

You ruined me, with kiss and hug,

 

Finally believed, that I would be enough,

 

You gave touch, that was lacked forever

 

But alas, I wonder why do I even bother?

 

For I wish to have, have it again,

 

I wish to see, love and not sin,

 

I am just who I am, not an impression,

 

But life keeps giving, a lesson after a lesson,

 

I just want my person, final and right,

 

To fall in to you, oh what a sight,

 

To live a life...

 

Where you are you, and I am me,

 

 

 

Thank you for letting me be part of your world, oh to give it a whirl,

Now I sleep with eyes wide, trying to swallow some form of pride,

To text you,

I used to get butterflies and sighs at mere mention of your name,

Now I have to cover up tears, but I feel I'm the blame,

Over invested, soul tested, again a mess of it,

To remember pretty eyes, and now again the long goodbye,

Only so many more this young boy in here can take,

Because hardening doesn't always work, sometimes that shit just breaks,

Breaks and doesn't repair, and I am well aware that one more like this,

He won't be tempered, but remembered fondly,

The shitty thing is nobody is perfect, and you can always work it,

Work it through, and not assume, that intentions and mentions,

Were about you, but a better me to pursue,

Multi-tasking and not reacting to criticism and blue,

I just wanted to be loved, loved for being who I am,

and if I'm better along the way damn,

We made it through,

But you were running at signs of rain,

Looking toward past trauma to blame,

Am I insane?

Did I let to much slip, when tongues were cracking whips?

Did I not understand what love is?

Unconditional, no record of wrong, that Corinthian song?

Damn me for having a soul of Gomez,

Giving out love like some candy Pez,

Hoping for reciprocation in some fashion,

Now I feel I'm left with twenty lashes,

Got the scars to prove it, internally,

Just wish love was like my moms, maternally,

But the truth is the only unconditional love we have,

Is when we actual find another half,

Through god some say,

I can't, because I don't know.

But regardless of it all,

I know you there listening from my fall,

Keep giving y'all,

Because Karma remembers.

Amen.

Oh, it is those Lapis Lazuli eyes,

 

And I promised I would never tell lies,

 

Oh your witty banter and joyful laughter,

 

Makes my heart beat slightly faster,

 

When days filled with tears rears,

 

To simple conversation and not fears,

 

And I realized you may be right,

 

A slow burn romance is alright,

 

Something built on friendship to love,

 

Simple gifts from the lord above,

 

I wish to convey to you,

 

How I see your colorful hue,

 

I wish to be of service to thee,

 

The servant to dreams of you and me,

 

To see fruition of macabre dance,

 

Slowly Gomez and Morticia in to romance,

 

I wish to dance by candle light,

 

I wish to run around and pretend to fight,

 

Live in a world of careful creation,

 

Daily living in playful flirtation,

 

I wish to date, and walk in the rain,

 

I wish to not have to explain,

 

To be careful with a loving heart

 

I just want that to start,

 

To feel safe, and sane,

 

To yearning and wane,

 

I wish to have soft tender lips,

 

Curvature, In undeniable hips,

 

To tell someone of colorful joy,

 

She makes me feel like a young boy,

 

Who held hands on the play ground,

 

And slowly turned on the merry go round,

 

And damn did I need that,

 

Because I forgot,

 

What kindness, purity and tender felt like.