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Not Ashamed Anymore

How do you start off one of those? Do you jump in with both feet or just float there hoping for the best?

Well for along time I was floater. I was ashamed of my needs and wants. I was already an outsider to my family and feeling what I was feeling, would it make it worse?

Then I thought if I step into this life and start looking for a Daddy, would I just been seen as another girl with daddy issues.

Its hard knowing you need something so deeply and badly and know it isn't the "normal". I'm not ashamed of myself anymore, but it does scare me. But here I am jumping with two fit in and I'm hoping to find the right Daddy for me.
6 years ago. Friday, February 8, 2019 at 3:26 PM

Have you ever just felt stuck? Like you can't move forward? That seems to be the theme with me these days. Finally admitting what I want and acting on it are two different things and are a lot harder to do then to write. 

 

I got myself out of a bad "relationship" with my former "Dom" and it took me awhile to heal and to find myself again, once I did I found myself here. Which is great, I don't feel like there's something wrong with me or that I'm crazy for wanting this lifestyle. But then I get some Intresting messages and it feel like my former "Dom"  is right there again and it's frustrating, because it makes me want to give me. Then I get some really nice messages and then it makes me rethink or question myself if I'm ever going to be a good enough for someone?? I know I'm being a Brat about this, I'm just feeling confused... 

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