Violet624(sub female)

Not Ashamed Anymore

How do you start off one of those? Do you jump in with both feet or just float there hoping for the best?

Well for along time I was floater. I was ashamed of my needs and wants. I was already an outsider to my family and feeling what I was feeling, would it make it worse?

Then I thought if I step into this life and start looking for a Daddy, would I just been seen as another girl with daddy issues.

Its hard knowing you need something so deeply and badly and know it isn't the "normal". I'm not ashamed of myself anymore, but it does scare me. But here I am jumping with two fit in and I'm hoping to find the right Daddy for me.

Frustrated with Myself

6 years ago. Saturday, February 9, 2019 at 9:18 AM

The title says it all..... This blog is hard to write, because it's mostly admitting I get lost in my head, listening to that stupid voice that tells me I'm worthless and unwanted. That I'm just someone's hole to be used, that's all I'm good for...

Yup my last Dom really fucked me up. I'm not one to live in the past, I pick myself up and more on. But this, what he did and said to me.... It stays with me, makes me doubt myself and thinks maybe he's right.

I love that I'm not ashamed of admitting what I need and want. It makes me feel clearer, but how can I just let go of all the pain, hurt, scars, burns and just let someone in again. To see it all the bad and good and be okay with that? To still want a Sub like me?

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Violet624​(sub female)

Not Ashamed Anymore

Frustrated with Myself

Violet624(sub female)