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Not Ashamed Anymore

How do you start off one of those? Do you jump in with both feet or just float there hoping for the best?

Well for along time I was floater. I was ashamed of my needs and wants. I was already an outsider to my family and feeling what I was feeling, would it make it worse?

Then I thought if I step into this life and start looking for a Daddy, would I just been seen as another girl with daddy issues.

Its hard knowing you need something so deeply and badly and know it isn't the "normal". I'm not ashamed of myself anymore, but it does scare me. But here I am jumping with two fit in and I'm hoping to find the right Daddy for me.
6 years ago. Sunday, February 10, 2019 at 10:06 AM

Good morning Cage Family and Friends!

Many of you have encouraged me to write out my feeling, that it helps and many of you are right, but there are a few that don't see it like that. I have gotten an out pour of love and support and I want to take the time to thank all of you for that. I have never had any support in my life like this before  and it helps so much.

So then you're probably wondering why does my heart hurt? Well because I've gotten a few not so nice messages after my blog or don't respond to messages right away. Telling me I don't take this lifestyle seriously, that I'm a fake and wasting everyone's time, that I should go away and never come back and that I'm a terrible Submissive.

To be honest I went to bed crying and cried for hours. I was alone and just feeling broken. I had some not so nice thoughts come into my head and I knew of those nice people on here knew what I was thinking they would be upset, so I came on here to write. I don't feel like getting out of bed and I feel like crying all over again. 

 

I'm trying my best and it just feels like it's never enough once again! Yes I'm being whiney and a Brat. I'm just really sad and my heart so fucking much.

Violet 

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