Violet624(sub female)

Not Ashamed Anymore

How do you start off one of those? Do you jump in with both feet or just float there hoping for the best?

Well for along time I was floater. I was ashamed of my needs and wants. I was already an outsider to my family and feeling what I was feeling, would it make it worse?

Then I thought if I step into this life and start looking for a Daddy, would I just been seen as another girl with daddy issues.

Its hard knowing you need something so deeply and badly and know it isn't the "normal". I'm not ashamed of myself anymore, but it does scare me. But here I am jumping with two fit in and I'm hoping to find the right Daddy for me.

Learning

6 years ago. Tuesday, March 5, 2019 at 9:28 PM

On my journey of learning about how the proper way of being treated, it has made me realize things. Like that I'm not just a hole to be used and I don't know how to feel about it. It's new that someone(s) care about me and want to take care of me, but also allow them to take their pleasures and needs.

Its makes me uncomfortable to have someone ask if something is okay or if I'm okay.... Its different and new. So many new feelings and experiences, it's again overwhelming I still don't know how to feel... Its sad to think that I'm so use to horrible treatment that I don't allow myself to feel the good. Well I will continue to figure out things as I go along in this journey.

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Violet624​(sub female)

Not Ashamed Anymore

Learning

Violet624(sub female)