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Not Ashamed Anymore

How do you start off one of those? Do you jump in with both feet or just float there hoping for the best?

Well for along time I was floater. I was ashamed of my needs and wants. I was already an outsider to my family and feeling what I was feeling, would it make it worse?

Then I thought if I step into this life and start looking for a Daddy, would I just been seen as another girl with daddy issues.

Its hard knowing you need something so deeply and badly and know it isn't the "normal". I'm not ashamed of myself anymore, but it does scare me. But here I am jumping with two fit in and I'm hoping to find the right Daddy for me.
6 years ago. Friday, March 8, 2019 at 5:06 PM

Thank Bloody Christ this pneumonia is almost over with! I hate being sick and being sick means no working out! Boo!

I have some of the best people in my life that understand this and work with me! My trainer is awesome and sweet. He has been a mother hen this whole time making sure I get sleep, food and anything else I need.

My coworkers I work with at a friends gym have been also very supportive and helpful. All ex military men, but sweethearts. They have helped me over the past year or so with me loosing over 140 pounds. It feels good to back my normal self without the extra weight.

We all train in mix martial arts and have a lot of fun doing so! I can't wait to be back in the Cage with them so I can kick some ass!

Even though I have to take it easy for awhile and not push myself too hard, still down my left lung do to an infection. I'm excited to get back out there and train!

 

An excited Violet ?

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