the visions of my lighthouse are getting distant. I've lost my emergency boat, my buoy has been thrown out to sea with no second thought. there's holes in my ship, in the brains, they creep with cobwebs and I'm losing my head. I'm ready to jump but I need to wait for pitch darkness. I'm so close. it's almost completely dark everywhere I look. water has been seeping in for so long, I can't tell you when it started happening. I can only tell you that it's heavier and heavier and my arms are shaking from having to bear the brunt alone.
I don't know what's on the otherside, I envision it much lighter, I just have to wait for my time to pass. I've craved calm waters for so long I can't remember what they feel like. I only know what it feels like to be in the tumultuous sea.
take me off your worry list 💔
1 month ago. Tuesday, December 2, 2025 at 10:50 PM