My Submissive Heart and Soul

Beach ... Friends ... Sex ... Yup .. I'm good with that!! 

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Dear Daddy,

One year ago today, this journey started ... our journey. I wasn't looking, wasn't interested in talking with anyone at that moment. All other attempts were not responded to, merely deleted, some not even read. I was preparing to walk away from it all, devastated and discouraged.

Yet, for some reason, I read Your message, then another and another, and something sparked in me. I can't explain it but it captured my attention and drew me in.

It started with few expectations but grew into something much larger for each of us. There was something ... so quickly. Something that made me comfortable and allowed the trust to begin. As much as I felt that though, I could feel myself slamming on the brakes, trying desperately to slow the speed and force this train was gaining.

The lessons I have learned are too many to count. Each breath I take is filled with lessons learned at your hand.  You have allowed me to be me. Accepted me as I am. All the facets that encompass me. There are many, I know. You have helped shaped me into a person I am finally comfortable to say I am proud of.  

I see, in wonder at times, your guiding hand, molding me, helping me to be the best version of myself. Encouraging me to truly embrace all of me and not be ashamed, but proud of who I am and who I am for You.

It is the most incredible feeling.

For someone to desire to know your true person, to stay with you when you stumble and flounder, when you are weak and when you are scared. It speaks volumes about the core of who You are, as a man, as my Dom.  

You want me to be a strong and confident submissive, I'm a work in progress. I know I can be a handful at times ... as the saying goes ... that's why you have two hands. 😉

Our path together has not always been an easy one. And these last months have been challenging. But we have opened up to each other, letting each other in, allowing me to see the vulnerable side of You as well. You allowed me to see a few dings in my Daddy’s armour.

Although I wish for 2020 to be over, part of me is thankful for it. In all the challenges and detours, it has shown me what I really mean to You. How much You trust me, how much You love me and how much You are willing to do for us. Our relationship becomes stronger in the struggles.  

In addition to my submissive life with You, I have a vanilla life as well, as do You.

The more I embrace this part of me, my submissiveness flows into my vanilla life so naturally, subtly. They have become so intertwined. What I do in my vanilla life is directly connected to my sub life. In fact, the decisions and actions I take in my vanilla life are so that I can maintain and enjoy my submissive life with You.

I celebrate all the wonderful things I do with You. We've done some crazy things. They have been fun, without a doubt and I always want us to experience new things. But the real important things to me are: dinner at a restaurant, a hug, snuggling on the couch, holding your hand as we walk, being told I am beautiful … the list goes on and on.

There are other darker things as well. You enjoy those with me as well. That’s another very important thing to me ... that we enjoy those things together. That is what holds meaning in it for me.

Your words and Your touch. That is what matters the most.  Without a doubt.

I have never known anyone like You. I was beginning to believe this couldn't happen for me. That I could grow like this, as Your submissive. You are a wonderful man, and I feel grateful to have been chosen to belong to You.  

We are in a place that has no label, a place that has no definition. Because there is no possible way there is anything else like this. This is deeper and stronger than anyone can express. All one can do is feel it and know it to be true.  That’s what I know. I know this is true. I know You are true.  

You are all I need. You. And I know You need me. I hear it in Your words, and I can see it in Your eyes.

Each day Daddy, You do what I have never experienced before ... to trust. In trusting You, I am revealing the way my mind works.

Each day, You calm the chaos of my mind, not for You, but so I can learn who I really am. A beautiful submissive woman that makes beautiful meaningful choices and does a beautiful thing by submitting to her Dominant.

You have started to help me to see what my own thought processes are. You have cast light on my behaviour, my fears and calmed my reactions to things. Helped me realize where we are alike, and where we differ.

You have helped me gain a different perspective on things, given me a sense of understanding that makes me realize sometimes, I have been blinded by habit or my own stubbornness.

You are so patient with lil k. You understand her, what she needs to feel safe and loved. You gently take her hand, help calm her mind when she gets frustrated and upset or afraid.

These moments, I want you to know, are the most priceless moments in my life.

The beautiful choice of a measured, reflective mind, making the best choice for me. No matter how scattered or fleeting my thoughts can be.

But you need to know it’s incredibly sexy, also turns me on in a way nothing else can. I am having this constant affair of the mind with You. The most mundane things have become incredibly exciting.

We have a slow, relaxed dance, like laying in bed with someone on a rainy day. I crave this more than anything right now.

I love the moments we have shared. I love as we have begun to plan our future together. I see it, I can feel it. I yearn for it to be here. I know ... I am impatient. I am because I want to experience every day with You. At Your side, at Your feet.

I am grateful to experience this wonderful, scary, amazing, confusing, enlightening, intoxicating journey with You.

They say you know your destiny when you see it.
I like my view.  
I love it with You Daddy.

Your loving submissive 

Your lil k

Your lil cub

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To My Daddy,

Today, I sit here thinking about You, all sorts of things running through my mind. I hate that was is happening in the world keeps You away from me. My heart is heavy, it beats for You and calls out Your name. If I close my eyes I can see You there, and my hand reaches out to touch You. My soul cries out, as a tear slides down my cheek. Our bond has grown so strong, that it's so hard to go another day without You. Without feeling You, if only for a few brief, cherished moments.

Sometimes I wonder if You truly understand how I feel about You. Do You feel the fire raging inside me, wanting desperately to please You and fulfill You in every way? Do You know how deeply You have touched my heart and soul?

When You place Your hand against my heart, do You feel it pounding against Your hand? Do You hear it calling Your name? My love and devotion to You measured by the intensity of each beat of my pure heart. When I am not with You, can You still feel my presence? If You close Your eyes, can You see Your submissive, Your possession kneeling at Your feet?

When You wake up in the middle of the night, do You yearn to have me at Your side? Do You feel my soft, sweet lips kissing You as I wake You in the morning, whispering into Your ear, how much I love You? Does Your heart ache, from longing to be with me? Do You love me and need me so much that it hurts? Do You feel the ache in Your soul when we are apart?

Am I the only one that can heal that ache? That feeling that You get when I submit, does it move Your soul? Does that powerful feeling consume You and overwhelm You? I give myself to You so completely without question. Do You realize that I would go anywhere that You wanted to lead me? Do You understand that all You have to do is ask, and it shall be done?

Do You know how much You fulfill me? Do You realize the power that You have over me? Do You see how a glance from You can bring me to my knees? Do you understand how I try so hard not to stumble?

Do You understand that I live to please You? Do You realize that You are my Life, my Love, my Daddy, my Sir, my Master, my Everything?

Daddy, my eyes are the door way to my soul. When You gaze into them, do You see all of these things?

Does it take Your breath away? Does it make Your heart swell with love for me? Does it fill You with honor and pride to know that I belong to You?

What W/we share is so unique and powerful. I trust You so immensely, I know that if I fall You will catch me. If I'm hurting You will comfort me. If I'm in danger You will protect me. If I'm lost You will find me. With every breath I take, with every beat of my heart I love You Daddy.

Happy birthday...and to many many more together.

Your loving submissive lil k

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I am a submissive woman. I find pleasure, joy, and fulfillment from being submissive to another in a loving relationship. I am not weak, or stupid. I am a strong woman, with firm views and a clear concept of what I want my life to be. I do not serve out of shame or weakness, but out of pride and strength.

I look to my loving Daddy/Sir/Master, as He is all those to me, for guidance and protection, I am never more complete than when He is with me. I know that He will protect my body, my mind, and my soul with His strength and wisdom. He is everything to me, as I am everything to Him. His touch awakens me and His thoughts free me. Only in serving Him do I find complete freedom and joy.

If He desires my body for pleasure, I always joyfully give it to him, and take pleasure myself from knowing that I have brought him happiness. However, the pleasure of the flesh is but one facet of any relationship. The love, the trust and sharing, the words spoken and felt, those are all parts of our relationship.

My body is His, and if He says I am beautiful, then I am. No matter what I look like to others, I am beautiful in His eyes, and because of that I hold my head high…for who can tell me that my Daddy is wrong in seeing the beauty in me? If He says I am His princess, then I am that…regal and graceful, and if I see laughter at me in the eyes of others, I do not recognize it, for who are they to call my Daddy wrong? If He says I am His toy, His slut, His tramp, then I am that…as wanton and dirty as He wants me to be, and if others do not see this, then it is they who are blind, not my Daddy.

My mind is His, to expand, to explore, to know as only He can. I have no secrets from Him…for secrets are a thing that would keep me from being more perfectly His. Secrets would put a wall up between my Daddy and myself…and I do not want walls. His lessons are not always ones I would seek on my own, but they are lessons He has decided I need, and so I learn from Him.

My soul is His, as bare to His touch as ever my skin could be when I kneel at His feet. Never a moment goes by when I do not feel His presence, be He miles away or standing over me. If I were to ever displease Him, His displeasure would be a blow to my soul, a worse punishment than any lashes could be.

I spend my days knowing that the energy and thought He puts into our relationship is as much for my benefit as for His. His part is much harder than mine, and I know this and am grateful that He cares enough about me to spend His time and energy so freely on me. I have the easier job: to feel, to experience, to let myself go and abandon everything to Him. I am His pleasure and His responsibility, and He takes both seriously.

I am a submissive woman. I am proud to call myself that. My submission is a gift that I do not give lightly, and can only be given to one who can appreciate that gift and return it tenfold. Only to He who has that strength will I give myself fully, because I am strong and proud.

I am a submissive woman.

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Daddy, I want to surrender in such a way that the moment I see you, it will pierce me, will weaken me, make me tremble and soften and melt.

When I close my eyes, I imagine you with me, pressing me against the wall unable to move except where you allow ... and as you kiss me passionately and forcefully, I feel you pressing against my breasts. So as I lay, I run my hands over my breasts, caressing them, cupping them in my hands imagining they are your hands, taunting my nipples and as I do they grow bigger and hard, as the passion builds you set me free slightly ... only enough to pull me into the bedroom where you push me back onto the bed. Raising my arms, to the permanent resting place of my red leather restraints, you fasten them around my willing and waiting wrists. Repeating this with the matching ankle restraints.

With what feels like many hands, you touch everywhere, passionately and forcefully, like many mouths, passing over me swiftly. As I imagine that, I run my hands down my body, feeling the excitement grow in my body, sending shock waves of anticipation through my body as I slip my fingers between my lips, circling and pressing on my clit, sliding fingers into my warm wet pussy, feeling my juices.

As I imagine your tigerlike sharpness, I feel your teeth and mouth sink into my flesh as I feel the hardness of your cock suddenly and powerfully plunge deeply and swiftly, repeatedly, into the depths of my body until I shudder from pure pleasure.

My Fury. My Master. My Sir. My Daddy.

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I lay here needing you Daddy.

You fill my thoughts and time stands still.
I picture you here next to me, strong arms holding me.

My hands wander my body as my mind focuses on what you might say if you were here with me ... 

Whispering in my ear "close your eyes baby ...
close your eyes, hear my voice and feel my touch.
My hand reaching firmly around your neck.
My lips kissing you as I move lower on you. 
My hand teasing your hard nipples as my mouth torments you."

Focused, on these thoughts, my hands playing with my nipples, they are hard and begging to be played with ... I open my legs for you Daddy. I feel the warmth and wetness building.  I am wet for you Daddy.

l close my eyes, I can feel my mouth sucking you, savoring. Taking you deep as I swallow you, my lips taking your manhood as you fill my mouth. Mmmmmm   Daddy ... feel my fingers squeezing you ... stroking you. Taking the head in my mouth as you suckle ... my pussy wet and ready.

I daydream more and feel your caresses. You bring me to the brink, I am at the edge ... Oh please ... but then stop. I hear a whimper escape my lips. You won't allow that much needed release, at least not yet.  I whisper, please    please daddy 
 
You feel my need ... my need to please you, excites you. Working to make you happy Daddy.    mmmmmm  Daddy

Clit so sensitive. Wet, dripping, my panties soaked. Ready to cum    sooo close    push    keep pushing    Oohhhh  Daddy

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I have this fascination with you, maybe an obsession. You creep into my thoughts
throughout my day and make my panties wet.

I daydream wicked thoughts of lips kissing down the back of my neck and fingers playing with my nipples while restrained. 

My memories linger softly over our past encounters, as I wiggle in my chair just to feel that sensation between my legs.

It is not enough to only think constantly of you. I need you in my arms, in my body and in my soul, touching every part of my being.

I miss you … desperately Daddy … 

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Meet Mr. Cuddles and Paws ... they are always making some kind of plan for no good ...

Luckily ... Theodore is able to be the voice of reason 

.... sometimes 😘😘

My snuggle buddies in Daddy's absence 

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... just the way my daddy likes me 😏😏

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