My Submissive Heart and Soul

Come here Little One. Daddy needs to talk with you.

... yes Daddy ...

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Perfection ... the ever elusive ultimate goal.

To be perfect implies a condition whereby our action or performance attains a level of excellence that cannot be exceeded.

I strive for this in my everyday life, I dare say most do. I aim for it in my home life, in my job, in my behaviour, in my relationships and in my submission to my Daddy.

As His submissive, my role is to be pleasing to Him in all ways. In how I serve Him, please Him and in my behaviour. How I behave and conduct myself, whether He is present or not, is considered a reflection of His dominance.

His role as my Dominant is to help and guide me to be the best version of myself. He nurtures my nature and my submission, seeking perfection.

Humans, however, were never intended to be perfect. That's part of the definition of being human. However, many use this as their escape to exhibit bad behavior, hence the coined phrases "I'm only human" or "that's just me". This becomes a crutch in justifying their actions.

For me personally, I not only have high standards for myself but also have them for others. As adults, we choose our actions. Our choices become the reflection of our inner self, but they also become a reflection on our Dom/Domme.

Lately, I've been asking myself, is anything real here? Is anyone as they seem here? Anyone at all?

It’s an honest question. 

Does integrity exist in this lifestyle whatsoever? I would like to think so. Is there a single person among us who is without blame? Of course not, but our efforts in our actions and choices can diminish negativity.

So many questions stirring in my soul as the sun begins to rise. I cannot dwell in the negativity of late. I cannot cope with contempt or justification. It weighs heavily on my heart.

I am anxious. Unable to sleep through the night. I grew to love this place. Have loved so much more the people. Desperately needing to see and feel something worth staying for. 

I read somewhere:

"Truth trumps tragedy. Integrity is a shield. 

Try it on sometime. It will protect you from inflicting pain and anguish on others."

I want to be a person and submissive my Dom is proud of. And before I had a Dom, someone a Dom would desire. Am I perfect? Absolutely not. I am flawed, just as everyone else. But I strive to take care of my behaviour and choices. I try so others may see that my efforts are genuine and true and not diminished by actions that are contradictory.

So ... do I make Him proud?

I hope so. He tells me so. I try every day to get one step closer to that goal.

Perfection may be elusive but being genuine and real is quite attainable. That is what I strive to be.

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We've seen it here time and time again ... but, in all my time here, I've never seen it as bad as the other night ... MOB MENTALITY.

To be perfectly blunt ... I have been completely disturbed and disgusted by what I watched start from a flame grow into a wild fire. And everyone who participated in it ... shame on you!! You were all soooo willing to jump onto the bandwagon and fuel a fire that you had no idea about any of the details. And those who did ... you should have known to stay out of what originated as a private conversation that was then taken public.

You all egged each other on and others just blindly and willingly jumped on. And you all have the audacity to talk about integrity,  honesty or respect? Where was that the other night??? Your comments and conduct make me question the character of you all.

I've seen you blog about respect and how we need to be accepting of each other and our differences. But what I witnessed the other night became a blood bath for your pure entertainment. I watched remarks of what the target of such comments could take as emotional threats, "delivering the body to morgue" and "pissing on their grave at the funeral" and much much more. How disgusting of you all.

I dare say that if any of you were the target of what was nothing short of pure bullying, your emotional well-being would have been seriously injured by the things you all said.

We, as bloggers, CAN and SHOULD control what happens with our posts and the comments made. When you make the decision to take something public, think first of what purpose it serves and what the possible consequences of it could be. I watched people who I held respect for, because in the past, they have presented as understanding and respectful people.

Your behaviour was despicable. Actions speak louder than words. Now, when I see your blogs of showing caring and respect to each other ... they will be taken as just empty words, as I now know that it's just a smoke screen to the true colours you bared the other night.

You all have said before, private issues and conflicts should be handled and remain private, and this case was no different.

I don't believe in taking private conversations or tearing a person apart, privately or publicly. The world in general can be a cruel and judging body for us in this lifestyle. What I was witnessed the other night was a mob with nothing but vile spewing from them.

I take ownership of my behaviour, actions and mistakes. I know which way my moral compass points. I guess now we know which way those involved point.

What I witnessed was not a community I would be proud to stand with and defend.

Would you?

“Class is about the dignity you carry yourself with and the level of respect you show to those around you.”

Sometimes music is able to put into words what I feel. Today ... it's filling my heart ... 

Like a Rose

By A1

And as I look into your eyes
I see an angel in disguise
Sent from God above for me to love
To hold and idolize

And as I hold your body near
I'll see this month through to a year
And then forever on til life is gone
I'll keep your loving near

And now I've finally found my way
To lead me down this lonely road
All I have to do is follow you
To lighten off my load

You treat me like a rose
You give me room to grow
You shone the light of love on me
And gave me air so I can breathe

You open doors that close
In a world where anything goes
You give me strength so I stand tall
Just like a rose

And when I feel like hope is gone
You give me strength to carry on
Each time I look at you there's something new
To keep our loving strong

I hear you whisper in my ear
All of the words I long to hear
Of how you'll always be here next to me
To wipe away my tears

And now I've finally found my way
To lead me down this lonely road
All I have to do is follow you
To lighten off my load

You treat me like a rose
You give me room to grow
You shone the light of love on me
And gave me air so I can breathe

You open doors that close
In a world where anything goes
You give me strength so I stand tall
Just like a rose

And though the seasons change
Our love remains the same
You face the thunder
When the sunshine turns to rain
Just like a rose

You treat me like a rose
You give me room to grow
You shone the light of love on me
And gave me air so I can breathe

You open doors that close
In a world where anything goes
You give me strength so I stand tall
Just like a rose

You give me strength so I stand tall
Within this bed of earth
Just like a rose

Thank you Daddy for all you are and all you do for me. I know I'm not always easy to handle, but you always know exactly what I need and when.

Your lil cub 

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So very simple ...

...that gesture and the simplest of words from Daddy  "good girl" 

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Watch how you use them. They have incredible power.

They can lift or destroy, bruise or heal, create love or fear.

“Langauge creates reality. Words have power. Speak always to create joy”

Eckhart Tolle...

AMEN.

To take that a step further ... in BDSM .. 

All the things I am so desperately missing and needing not being able to be together right now ... 

Your touch...

Your dominance ...

Your strength ...

Your calm ...  

You ... I just need you Daddy ...

My Fury ...

Your lil cub  ❤❤❤

I am so grateful for my Daddy. He is always there when I need Him. I am always amazed when He somehow just seems to know what I need at the moment. There's been a lot of talk about LDRs lately. They are difficult but we have found some ways for us to connect that are unique and special to us. 

Having to cancel my travel plans to spend some much needed time with Him seems to have compounded my missing Him and how I handle all the other stresses. 

I heard this song today and it just resonates to me....

Daddy, thank you for showing me every day just how much you love me. 

Lil k

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My work schedule since the holidays has been more than gruelling to say the least. Not leaving any time (or energy) for anything else. Now that things are settling down, I keep waiting for my energy levels to return ... they haven't yet. It's taking me some time to bounce back, longer than usual.

Through it all, my friends have been there, letting me vent, checking on me, being the very best of people I know. Thank you .. you all know who you are. 🤗🤗🤗

The other constant has been Daddy. He has been nothing but understanding, supportive and patient. Knowing what I needed, even when I didn't. He was my strength. When I didn't think I could do another day, He encouraged me and helped me get through that day. He was amazing. Is amazing. I am so very grateful for Him everyday.

I can't wait for us to be together again and the countdown has begun until we are again ... 6 weeks Daddy. It seems like an eternity, but I'm hoping it will go quickly.

This little is not very patient when it comes to waiting. All I want is to be in my Daddy's arms. 

Soon Daddy ... soon.

Your lil k ... 

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