My Submissive Heart and Soul

For my Fury ...

Happy Valentine's Daddy ...

Love your lil cub...

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..to say, I love you...

Just how I'm feeling today Daddy ... 

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...  a bath Daddy!!!! 😏😏🤭🤭🛀🛀

..no more showers for me!!! 😁😁

As I sit at my desk, I find my eyes fixated on a paper weight my son gave to me when he was little. It's a butterfly, wings spread wide, encased in glass. It is beautiful. Her wings are unique in shape, beautiful colours and looks very graceful. My mind is drifting.

In one of my first blogs, I mentioned how I felt like a caterpiller. How inch by inch, I will get closer to where and who I am meant to be, guided by the light I could see far off in the distance. Finding my place in the world, discovering me and all I am. The pathway to that light has been the shedding of the confines of my cocoon, becoming that beautiful butterfly I spoke of when I began my journey.

Beautiful in it's shape, beautiful in colours, beautiful wings to take flight with. 

I've been going through this metamorphasis for awhile now ... growing as woman, growing to reach my potential as the submissive I am meant to be. It has been exciting, painful, exhilarating and terrifying all at the same time. Even though the really difficult times made me want to give up, walk away, I'm so thankful I didn't.

I feel I have finally shed the last of my cocoon. I no longer need it, nor do I fit within its confines any longer.

I have turned into that beautiful butterly. I have found my wings. When I see my reflection, I see the beautiful submissive I was born to be. The beautiful submissive my Daddy sees. He sees me, He understands me, He accepts me, He knows my potential. 

He is helping me learn how to spread my wings and fly. He knows my fears, He guides me. He will lead me.

He has and will continue to help me soar to heights I never thought possible. He reassures He is with me, keeping me safe while I discover just how far my wings can take me. 

As we prepare to plan for our future together, I am excited and calm and ready for the next chapter in our lives to begin. 

Patience is not one of my strongest virtues (my little is still working on this)  🙄 especially when I can see what's waiting ahead. I want it to be here now, I want to run towards my future ... our future together. 

I'm curious to see just how high I can soar ... where my wings will take me. As long as Daddy is leading me, and encouraging me, I will be open to wherever he wants me to fly. 

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I've been thinking about so many things lately. So much going on, so many changes coming up. All good and exciting! But it can get overwhelming too. 

I'm so grateful for the people I have in my life. Most especially, three truly amazing women, who, at times, have held me up as I've trudged through mud, thinking I would drown in it.  At times, have sat with me in that same mud when I needed to just stop and rest. And other times, have held my hand as I've made my way to the edge of it, making my way out of it. Moving forward to my future.

We have laughed together, cried together, cared for one another and everything in between. All so different and unique, and so beautiful, from the inside out.

We haven't met in person, yet, but we will be soon ... 181 days to be exact!!  😘

When we do, for some reason, I have this picture in my head of the 4 of us, the 4 Musketeers! Haha! Look out world! As individuals, they are unique, mighty and fierce. Together ... I think a force of nature!! 

Ladies ... as the song goes ... you are knee-deep in my heart and will remain there forever. 

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It's been an exhausting weekend and a dark, weighing-heavy-on my-mind kind of day.

Feeling a little knocked about by life today.

My little is in much need of TLC. 

I am so grateful for supportive friends wanting to be there for me. I love you all! 🤗

And very grateful for Daddy, who has been reassuring Lil k all day. Thank you Daddy.

You are all my flashlight in the dark.

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Love the sentiment of this song ... it speaks to how we feel in our hearts as we begin to plan our future together Daddy...

Boy meets girl and the world stops turning
She makes him forget all the rules he was learning
They give a toast to the ones who never stop hoping
There's not much to lean on and eyes wide open
And they look up high and wonder what the future's gonna hold

Will we look back down on 99 years of a wonderful life
Where we laughed till we cried 
and our love was stronger with every fight
There'll be a thousand moments for you to say "I told you"
And a million more for us to say "I love you"
So let's look forward to you and I looking back
At 99 years like that
At 99 years like that

They build a house of love in the face of worry
But life has a way of rewriting the story
There were times when it looked like nothing could save them
There were times when it looked like nothing could break them
They keep promising each other what the future's gonna hold

Will we look back down on 99 years of a wonderful life
Where we laughed till we cried 
and our love was stronger with every fight
There'll be a thousand moments for you to say "I told you"
And a million more for us to say "I love you"
So let's look forward to you and I looking back
To 99 years 
Of nothing unspoken
With every day hoping
That when we feel broken
Our scars make us golden
Is to choose, choose you and I
Will we look back down on 99 years of a wonderful life
Where we laughed till we cried 
and our love was stronger with every fight
There'll be a thousand moments for you to say "I told you"
And a million more for us to say "I love you"
So let's look forward to you and I looking back
At 99 years like that
Oh, at 99 years like that
At 99 years like that

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I love this song ... it describes how I'm feeling lately perfectly...

Have you ever felt it could all go away 
If you blink
If you never stop running you won't fall behind
So you think
And you wonder in your heart
If you're still not who you are
Who are you?
Nothing's as it seems till it all falls apart

If you have a dream, go chase it
If you feel hope, don't waste it
If you find love, embrace it
And never take a single breath for granted
The story's yours, go write it
Tomorrow's undecided
Our days are counted on this planet
Never take a single breath
Take a single breath for granted

Maybe it's time you bet on yourself
Listen to your heart
Just listen to your heart and nobody else
So go find out who you are
Only you know who you are
Who are you?

'Cause all you have to lose 
Is your best life yet
So go ahead

If you have a dream, go chase it
If you feel hope, don't waste it
If you find love, embrace it
And never take a single breath for granted
The story's yours, go write it
Tomorrow's undecided
Our days are counted on this planet
Never take a single breath
Take a single breath for granted

Sometimes the greatest moment we'll ever know
Are when we're letting go, so let go
And maybe our brightest days still wait for us
In the unknown

If you have a dream, go chase it
If you feel hope, don't waste it
If you find love, embrace it
And never take a single breath for granted
If you have a light, go find it
The story's yours, go write it
Our days are counted on this planet
So never take a single breath 
Take a single breath for granted

... it's your story ... go write it! I am! 

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In His hands, I am free to dream, to desire, to explore

In His heart, I am desired, cherished and loved

In His arms, I am safe, calm and protected 

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