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Where I Was, Where I Am, and Where I Am Going. And on a not so serious note, random things I just wish to share. Many times there will be no edits, so be prepared for grammar mistakes.
1 year ago. Wednesday, January 29, 2025 at 5:21 AM

This version will always be the better version, as it had been written for Meat Loaf, not Celine Dion, she is an amazing artist. But this was Meats song.

I can listen to it everyday, some days it's on a continual loop, hearing his voice calms my soul.

 

1 year ago. Sunday, January 26, 2025 at 6:47 PM

as I left my back door to walk the dog, I met this little critter, just sitting in the sun by in old wild rose bush. He was basking in the sun. Enjoying the last rays of warmth before the sun sets.  I too little critter like to sit out in the sun by and old wild rose bush. 

1 year ago. Sunday, January 26, 2025 at 12:38 AM


my life  is in organized chaos, my world turned upside down, things don’t look the same anymore. 

1 year ago. Friday, January 24, 2025 at 10:11 PM

 

it rings true 

1 year ago. Friday, January 24, 2025 at 10:24 AM

Decided to join up as a paid member. Little bit of a price jump from 2018 when I paid $5 a month.  But I want to connect more in a completely platonic way with other members. To discuss various topics and able to message as needed.  Also I wanted to be able to share photos in my blog and profile. They will not be “tit” pics so all keep it in your pants. lol. I’m kidding. For me it’s about showing very little, just enough. The beauty of my body for me. 

1 year ago. Tuesday, January 21, 2025 at 4:03 AM

As I sit here in my corner office looking out into the cold dark night. I glance to my weather system and NOAA reports and see the temp is -8. BUT, BUT. with windchill it’s sitting at a balmy -29!  That’s right -29 degrees F!  The F stands for FUCK! 

Before I headed into work I made sure to be prepared. My heavy parka and golves and an extra pair of thermals to wear over my pants. Blanked in vehicle and gear for the dog. She even has a neck gator to protect her ears.  

I turned the heat up a notch and let the faucets drip and opened the sink cabinets. When this weather hits I realize how much weather proofing I need to do on a little 100 yr old farm house.  

so all who are in cold regions, stay warm, be prepared and drink plenty of fluids. 

1 year ago. Tuesday, January 21, 2025 at 2:54 AM

sitting here at work. Pulling up some of the hits I’d listen to years ago.  Almost forgot about this one. 

1 year ago. Monday, January 20, 2025 at 3:41 AM

The weekend is closing . I was so glad to have the weekend off, as it was cold and windy. It’s no fun to see a negative number displaying the current temperature.  

I pulled into my driveway Saturday morning returning home from my shift. The sky was a hazy grey and light snow danced across the hood. It was cold! Made a mad dash into the house, just to drop my stuff (I swear I carry so much stuff for work) and then to take the dog out. 

once  back inside we got cozy. Comfy clothes and fuzzy socks, and a hot, hot cup of coffee. Curled up on the couch with a few books and highlighters in hand and Sirius XM set to a classical music channel.  

I was all snuggled in for two days of no people, no phone calls, and silence. I read, and  the dog chewed her bone. Only getting up to get more coffee and the times to run the dog out . I did the normal things to keep the house tidy: dishes, laundry, things put away. I’ve come to love and crave a clean and tidy home, working on my minimalist lifestyle. 

I relaxed and planned my work week, meal prepped. Wrote a couple newspaper articles. Laid out my work clothes. Worked on other house/office projects.  Had 5 candles burning and read so much, napped here and there and did some personal exploring. 

soon the majority will be getting up to start their day as I will be rounding out mine with a good workout, shower and crawl into bed, and drift off soundly. 

 

1 year ago. Sunday, January 19, 2025 at 2:56 PM

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1 year ago. Sunday, January 19, 2025 at 8:08 AM

Therapy-Yay or Nay?
Do you think that when a couple starts a relationship, they should attend couples therapy? i firmly believe it should be a requirement of the relationship, and then be utilized as needed. It doesn't mean you are crazy, weak, or whatever you might think. It would help so much in the communication department; one side can be saying the same thing over and over, and the other side hears it but isn't catching on or is completely struggling with what is being said. So, that leads to tension between the two, causing doubt.


There is a book I am currently reading titled Come Let Us Reason by Norman L. Geisler, and there is a passage that I have underlined, circled, and noted. It is an excerpt from Alice in Wonderland and a conversation with The Mad Hatter and March Hare-
"Then you should say what you mean," the March Hare went on. "I do : Alice hastily replied; "at least- as least I mean what I say- that's the same thing, you know."
"Not the same thing a bit!" said the Hatter "Why, you might as well say that 'I see what I eat' is the same thing as 'I eat what I see'
"You might just as well say" added the March Hare "that 'I like what I get' is the same thing as 'I get what I like!"
"You might just as well say" added the Dormouse. "That 'I breathe when I sleep' is the same thing as 'I sleep when I breathe'!"
"It is the same thing with you" said the Hatter


Confusing isn't it? Looks like a run around in the conversation of one trying to say the same thing. Many people have this conversation with their partner, which can lead to such a conflict. They may have a wonderful ability to have a productive conversation in so many areas of their life, but there might be one area of major importance that is a struggle, and both are trying to speak, but it is heard differently; it's not that the other is disregarding what the other says, or the importance of what is wanted, not at all. When I say, "i am struggling" or "i am not understanding," it does not mean i don't hear what is said or don't want to do what is said. Then more words fly and are told 'you really don't want to do this, otherwise you would just do it, it's not that hard or complicated' So the above book passage rang true to me.


i never thought i would be a person who would attend therapy. But in 2019 it became a reality. i was in a lot of pain from unresolved issues that i didn't know that i had. i thought i lived a happy healthy life, but Bishop pointed out that it wasn't what it seemed. So off to therapy, i went; Bishop said it was a requirement to attend therapy and do the work.


Therapy went very well, and my eyes were truly opened to the mental abuse i grew up with, which showed me how i acted in relationships, and Codependency- something i never knew of, what it was, or what it did.. So i attended sessions religiously, and got to a point where it became i didn't need it as much, and continued to work on my own, Then came along another set back, and i headed back in for weekly sessions, putting everything out on the table. I made a lot of discoveries and ways to navigate and i shared the highlights. Now i attend monthly, and can add more sessions as needed.
Therapy can and does help so much, and the stigma needs to be broken and thrown away. It helps beyond measure. Attend your sessions, encourage your partner, and attend couples sessions. Don't let each other down. If you want a happy, healthy, strong, kinky relationship, why wouldn't you participate for yourself and the "Greater Good"?