I have with 2 -3 books at a time now. Since may I had one book for sure or I was reading on line and listening to speakers on YouTube.
I'm grappling many emotions and thoughts. Somehow jealousy popped into my mind today, dont know why or where it was directed.
Back to my books. I'm half way through and I will flip back to previous pages to clarify or have moment. Linear thinking and being trapped in that, and feedback loops. Coping with chaos. Or how someone automatically plays the ”glue” in the family.
Then I am learning about the child. Inner child, Real Self, Higher Self, Divine Child, true self Loving, giving, fear. Letting the child with in out. The real self and true self characteristics, and I have some on each side. So does that mean I'm not as screwed up as I thought?
Personalities and where I fall. I seem to be in the defender category. Majority of that list is true.
Oh and I'm looking at Dabrowski: theory of Disintegration
I want to change me and my thinking and grow. Tomorrow is therapy and the forced abortion will be the topic.
