I cried today, I do cry from time to time, mainly happy tears. Not today, it was a fucking ugly cry. Gave myself a headache and my nose was stopped up. Boy oh boy did the tears flow. I felt much better afterwards, just didn’t like how I felt when I was crying. I'm usually a very happy and upbeat person, the one with a genuine smile plastered on their face.
I had a shitty day at work, all because I hit my rock bottom, I wasn’t giving it my all, didn’t give a rats ass. I still did the work, just not to the level I know I can do and to the level I’m known for doing it at. I was feeling beat down.
I cried big fat tears, there was snot involved, blubbering and an empty feeling I did not like.
But I wiped the tears and blew my nose. Took a big deep breath and told myself you must do better, must get back to where you were.
I hate ugly cries... still have a headache. But I feel so much better.
