Happy Valentines Day to my lovely Cagers and I promise no vitriol today.... today is solely about love.
16 hours (give or take) from now I'll see her smiling face coming up the escalator at the airport. It seems like forever ago that she was in my arms, but it was a mere 5 weeks. As I reflect on this beautiful ride we've been on I always think of how grateful I am for this place and the love I found here with my Laura. I came here for community, I'd left the public side of BDSM many years ago and I wasn't so sure that I was ok with stepping back into it again, I thought that perhaps inching my way into the pool by first chatting online might be the best. I started hanging out in the chatroom and gabbing to anyone who would listen. I wasn't "looking" for anything and after a dozen messages from male submissives, I removed my switch tag and enjoyed the peace. I met Laura in that chat room, was almost instantly smitten and I've never looked back.
Laura, you are everything. I cannot imagine a tomorrow that doesn't include you. I'm so blessed to have a love that is so pure that I never question it (even if it appears that I do). When I lay my head down at night, I don't wonder if things will be different in the morning, because they never are, your love is constant and has never failed me. I wasn't sure that I could be someone's Dominant. I was confident in my submission and who I was to Him (I still am), but the amazing part of being a switch (and bi) is how you have the ability to compartmentalize the different facets of who you are and can grow and learn in them without fear of jeopardizing the others. Being your Dominant has never been hard, we fell so easily into that role that I was shocked. Our growth in our dynamic has been organic and intense. I am at peace in our love and relationship. It has given me a place of solace in a world that often isn't kind. I laugh.... constantly and without restraint. Huge belly laughs that bring tears to my eyes. It's not always just how silly we can be, it's joy. You bring me joy. Your love has opened my eyes to so much beauty that I've missed for so long. I love us and I wish sometimes that I could just be cool and laid back about it, but it's just not possible. I am loved so completely and beautifully that I want the world to know.... If I bore others with it, so be it.
Counting the minutes until you are in my arms and at my feet, just where you belong, my darling boi. Here's to our very first Valentines Day and to our forever future. I love you
