Daddy Issues

So after Hubby and I had our talk about how we were feeling last night, he broke out the Tickle Monster. I was hiding behind my stuffie Lily, and I didn't want to come out. So, Daddy proceeded to tickle me until I gave up. I went to sleep last night feeling much better. 

Thank you all for listening to me vent last night. No, I do not want to create doube standards, I was raised very conservative so all of this is going to take a bit to get used to. My hubby and I love each other and we want to see each other happy. I think our ultimate Goal is to have our Mommies and Daddies close enough to integrate them into our daily lives. 

I love all you guys thanks for the advice and support!!!

This truly breaks my heart. My hubby has found a little who he little talks with. I asked him why he didnt do that with me he said it's because I'm his wife. That hurts so much. 

Am I not good enough to be his little? I know that I have a hard time with him being my Daddy but its because he doesn't try very hard with me.

Feel like crying

So I met a Daddy where i am at now and he is super cuddly and is awesome. The hubby just got a job offer in Spokane and now we probably have to move. I don't know if I could handle not having a Daddy close to cuddle with, should I tell him that I con't handle the distance???? 

Life is so not fair sometimes, but on the brightside I get to be with family and get a job to help the hubby if we do end up moving. 

There are lots of like minded people up there in Spokane so if I need to I can find another Daddy. UGH!!!! So frustrating!!!!!

Any suggestions???

Today I got my first stuffie. It's a pink unicorn with purple feet and hair. I LOVE it. I also got new jammies that are pink, I got a new paci and sippie too. Today has been a good day. 

On the extremely bright side I found a Daddy in my town and we have been chatting away. Call it inta connection. Funny thing he could be my hubby's twin. 

Life is good right now. 

Today I get my new stuffie from Daddy. I was a good girl all week, I did everything Daddy asked. Daddy said he was going to surprise me with two new stuffies today for being his good little girl. I hope one is a light up unicorn! I hear Daddy enter the house, "Come here babygirl." I run to him and jump into his arms because I am so excited. 

"Hi Daddy!!!" I smother Daddy with kisses until he chuckles. 

"Is my baby excited to see what Daddy got her?" 

"Yes Daddy. Pwease may Isee my new stuffie?" 

"Such a good girl. Follow Daddy into the bedroom. When we get there I will give you your first new stuffie." Weird. Daddy normally gives me new stuffies on the couch. Walking into the bedroom, Daddy tells me to get on the bed and so I do. "On your tummy baby." I flip over onto my tummy, then it hits me. Daddy got me a naughty stuffie. I hear Daddy open a tube of lube and feel it dribble on my bottom. 

"Daddy?" 

"Hush little one. Daddy won't hurt you, but Daddy got you a naughty stuffie for this naughty little asshole of yours." I flush a deep red with embarassment. Daddy has yet to play with me there, I can feel Daddy's finger gently working its way into my bottom hole. There is a bit of pain at first but it gives way to a pleasure I didn't know. I push back towards Daddy because i want more. "That's it baby that's a good girl." Daddy adds a second finger, again there is a bit of pain. Soon Daddy removes his fingers and pushes something up against my bottom hole. It's definately bigger than his fingers but I wonder if the bigger the stretch the greater the pleasure. "Relax and push back baby. As soon as Daddy has this naughty stuffie in you Daddy is going to make you scream." Oh, hell. I push pack, it hurts but Daddy has stretched me enough that it doesnt hurt too bad. Once it is seated, I wiggle my hips at the odd full sensation. As soon as I do, my pussy starts dripping, and aching for Daddy. 

"Please Daddy. Please i need you in me." I beg. 

"Such a good girl for asking so nicely." I can hear Daddy take off his clothes, and feel him climb onto the bed behind me. I feel the heat of Daddy's hard shaft against my entrance. He teases my tracing the outline of my pussy lips with his cock. "So wet baby. Naughty girl, someone likes her naughty little ass played with doesn't she?" 

"Yes Daddy." My voice is breathy, and filled with desire. 

"Daddy is gonna take good care of you naughty little girl." Without warning Daddy thrust all the way into me. I moan with pleasure, and Daddy grunts. "Fuck babygirl, you're so wet for Daddy. Such a sweet little one." daddy starts to thrust into me over and over again. I can feel the tension building, but I know I am not allowed to cum without permission. 

"Please daddy. I need to cum." 

"That's right baby, you can cum. Cum all over Daddy's cock." I see stars as I cum all over Daddy's thick pulsing cock. I can feel Daddy's cummies spraying into my pussy. When I come back to my body, Daddy has me curled up on his lap. He reaches behind him to grab something. "Does my sweet princess want her other stuffie now?"

"Yes please Daddy." Daddy brings out a unicorn and places it in my hands. "Oh thank you Daddy!!!" I give him smoochies while I hug my new stuffie. It lights up!!! Daddy got me a light up unicorn!!!!!! Yay!!! I try to stifle a yawn, but I can't.

"Okay babygirl, let's get you tucked in for nappy time." I cuddle with my new stuffie and Daddy gets me my paci and favorite blankie. "Sleep well princess. You' re such a good little girl." I have never been happier, Daddy always finds new ways to make me happy. 

DISCLAIMER: Dark, and dangerous. Nothing against Masters, and slaves in the lifestyle.

This is going to be a short story about a Navy seal and his little girl

Running down the cracked side walk, fleeing the scene. I never thought I would escape the evil person who took advantage of my submission. Frankie, the Italian mob boss of Spokane, decided I was his slave. He went passed my hard limits on multiple occasions. I just broke free of the compound, and I am terrified. There is no one to protect me, I am all alone. As I run, I keep looking behind me fearing the worst. I slam into something hard and go flying. Before I hit the ground, strong arms wrap around me. I start to kick and scream. 

"Hush, now little one. You're okay." I still at the voice, smooth, calming, deep. In a tone that demands to be obeyed. I look up at my rescuer, I am stunned. Deep green eyes, a strong, chiseled jaw, and muslces upon muscles. He looks like a walking brick wall, My Lord, and his legs look like tree trucks. He stands about a good foot taller than me. Standing at 5 foot three I feel like a child next to him. "You okay?" He asks as he sets me down. I am gonna have to take a gamble, he looks like he could hold his own. I look down as i start to speak.

"No, Sir. I am trying to escape Frankie." I can feel his body tense, but I continue. "I don't have any where to go." I choke out as a sob wracks through my body. 

"Shhhh, i got you little one. My name is Barret, I am an ex- Navy Seal. I will keep you safe." He says this as he lifts my chin to look him in the eyes. "Come on, let's get rolling." He walks me to a huge SUV, and he practically lifts me up into the vehicle, he even buckles me in. Thank goodness because I am too stunned to speak. Of all the people I run into, I find a Seal. The ride passes in a blur, when the truck stops he looks over at me. "Okay, wait for me to come get you." I nod, not having much energy to do much else. He carries me like a child into his house, I see that he has a security system, and a very high fence and motion censored lights. He sets me down in the entryway, and turns to lock the deadbolt behind us. I know he is going to want more of what happened. All I really have to do is show him the scars and the fresh cuts and bruises. My hard limits were blood play, leaving marks, and forcing. Frankie never cared about those no matter how many times I safeworded. 

"I guess you want to know what happened?" I say in a soft voice.

"I do, but you don't have to tell me right now." That would be nice but the sooner I tell him the sooner I can forget about it. 

"Okay, but I just want to getthis over with." He nods and beckons me to follow him. In his living room I sit on one of the couches and he sits across from me. "Frankie, made a deal with my father. I was to be a peace offering because my father owed Frankie money. Frankie is deep into BDSM, and it was a first for me. I had limits but he ignored them. I safeworded but he never stopped. I got out today and I ran into you." I take in a deep breath, this whole time he has been quiet. "I just want to be safe, loved, and cared for. I have always wanted a Daddy, but I am so scared now." He stands up and walks over and kneels in between my legs. Looking into my eyes,

"Listen here little girl. You must be the luckiest person alive. I know Frankie's reputation and i do not doubt for a second that happened. on the second note, I have been looking for a little girl to spoil." I can feel my eyes widen in response.

"Really?"

"Yes, baby. How would you like to be my babygirl?" 

"Yes please Daddy. But what if Frankie comes after you too." I shudder.

"You just let Daddy take care of that. Here let's get you upstairs in a bath. Would you like some bubbles?" 

"Yes, daddy." I blush, as he picks me up again and carries me. The bathtub his huge, it could fit like three people in it. He sets me down next to the tub and starts the water, he puts in bubbles after he gets the temperature adjusted. 

"Do you want Daddy to help you undress?" I nod my head wanting him to see the damage that has been done to me. Daddy slowly lifts the dress up, I can see his jaw ticking the higher he lifts the dress. Once it is removed, I can see the anger in his eyes at what has been done to me. 

"I understand if you don't want me." i say looking down. He brings my gaze to his. 

"Babygirl, you are beautiful the way you are. I just wish I could have gotten to you before you were hurt. Let Daddy make it better?" I nod as I swallow a lump in my throat. Daddy helps me into the tub, he washes my hair. Once he is done with that he helps me out of the tub and gingerly dries me off. "Let's get you fixed up baby." He carries me to the counter and sets me on it. He gets out a medical kit and starts patching up the cuts. When that it finished Daddy takes me by the hand and leads me to my room. I walk in and am in complete awe. The bedseat is completely pink, there are stuffies all over the bed and there are a few pacis too. I am in heaven.

"Thank you Daddy." He turns on the TV to the news station.

"There is something I need to tell you Princess. There was a reason I was in that area I found you today." I see Frankie's face on the TV screen, the headline says he's dead. I look at my Daddy, with wonder he really was my rescuer.

"Thank you Daddy. You made me safe again." I walk over to him and give him a hug.

TWO WEEKS LATER

"Come here little girl." Daddy's tone has the better listen vibe going on. I find Daddy in the kitchen sitting at the table. 

"Yes Daddy?"

"It's time I make you mine." Daddy has a mischieivous look in his eyes. Finally, I can feel the heat start to build instantly between my legs. "Strip, now." I don't hesitate in obeying his command. I know he would never hurt me beyond what i can handle. Daddy stands and walks over to me, "Daddy has waited so long to have you little girl. Daddy is gonna be hard and fast so you better hang tight." 

"Yes Daddy" my voice laced with desire. Without warning Daddy pushes me over the table and spreads my legs apart. Daddy thrusts all the way in on the first drive.

"Fuck" He hisses, "God damn baby." Daddy starts to move, slowly at first as to not hurt me. in no time at all the table has moved from the center of the room to up against the wall. I can feel myself building, with each thrust of his cock into my pussy. 

"Please Daddy. I need to cum." 

"Such a good girl, cum on Daddy's cock." I explode almost on command. "That's it baby, cum for Daddy." I scream as I see white. I feel Daddy slide out and carry me upstairs. I am laid down with my stuffies and my paci. "Rest now baby. Daddy will always keep you safe." I drift off to sleep dreaming of what it would be like to live like this my whole life. Yeah, I could totally get behind it. 

"Nye, nye Daddy" I say as the darkness takes me under. 

So had a Dr. appointment today to lok at a lump and with my family history, chances are it's cancer. I'm super nervous about it all i want to do is cuddle up with Daddy, have him brush my hair while watching movies. This is the only down side to having a Daddy that doesn't live close. 

Sometimes it's hard being a super cuddly, tactile little. When I feel down I like to cuddle, but I can't do that. 

Also i was thinking how funny it is that my Daddy is 43 and my actual dad is 46. Is that a little too old for comfort? 

== Results from bdsmtest.org ==
100% Boy/Girl
98% Rope bunny
97% Ageplayer
91% Submissive
67% Voyeur
67% Exhibitionist
67% Primal (Prey)
57% Experimentalist
56% Masochist
53% Non-monogamist
50% Vanilla
43% Brat
42% Slave
17% Pet
12% Daddy/Mommy
4% Degradee
1% Brat tamer
1% Primal (Hunter)
1% Switch
0% Rigger
0% Dominant
0% Degrader
0% Owner
0% Master/Mistress
0% Sadist

Daddy has been gone for work for a week. I miss him so much. I've been a good girl for the most part, the only thing I haven't done was fold the laundry like Daddy told me. The bratty side of me wants to leave it because he left me for so long. Daddy should be home tomorrow, and I wonder what he has for me. He said he was gonna get me a gift for being a Good girl all week. As I am sitting at the table coloring, there is a knock at the door. Weird, I'm not expecting anyone. The knock sounds again, so I go to the door and answer it without looking to see who it is. Daddy is standing on the porch, witha stern look on his face. Oh shit, my ass is grass. 

"Did you just open this door without looking to see who it was little girl?" Shit Daddy is mad, I know I should answer but I am too shocked to speak. Daddy has been gone for so long. His deep brown eyes, and strong jaw are set into the better answer me now look. 

"um..........I missed you Daddy." I say to try and avoid getting punished. I know it's going to happen anyways. 

"I missed you too little girl, but you didn't answer Daddy's question." 

"Yes, Daddy. I opened the door without looking." I say with my head hung in shame. 

"You know the consequences for that baby. Were you a good girl this week?"

"No Daddy, I didn't fold the laundry like you asked." Better to get all my lashings at once. Damn my bratty side. 

"I see. Go over to the couch and bare that bottom little girl. You have been naughty, Daddy needs to spank that ass." I walk over to the couch almost on autopilot. Once I am next to the couch, I pull my panties down and lift up my skirt. daddy's voice booms behind me making me jump, "Bend over the arm, young lady. You are getting five lashes for opening the door and then five for not folding the laundry. You will count them."

"Yes Daddy." I laid over the arm, my stomach in knots. I hate punishments but I know I deserve this. The only warning I get is the swish of the belt through the air. CRACK! I forgot how much this hurts, "One, Daddy" CRACK! CRACK! "Two, Three." CRACK! CRACK! "Four, five." By now the tears are running freely down my face, Daddy pauses to rub some of the sting out.

"Baby, I am doing this so you don't get hurt. What if it was a serial killer at the door?" I brake into sobs. "Five more baby. You are doing such a good job taking your punishment. Such a good girl." I feel Daddy move away and I attempt to relax my bottom. CRACK! CRACK! 

"Six, seven." Breathe I tell myself. CRACK! CRACK! CRACK! "Eight, nine, ten." I hear the belt drop to the floor, and then Daddy has me in his lap. 

"Shhhh, babygirl. It's all over. Daddy's has you now. It's okay. Such a good girl." I cry into his chest thankful that he is finally home and has put my bratty side to bed. I don't like my bratty side, she's a meanie. "Does my little girl want to see what Daddy got her while she was away?" i instantly perk up. Daddy chuckles at me.

"Yes please Daddy." Daddy sets me on the couch, and walks over to his bag. 

"Close your eyes baby. Hold out your hands." I do as I am told. Is it a new stuffie, I always love stuffies. I feel something in my hands, it feels like leather and fur. Weird okay, "Open your eyes baby girl." I look down at the object in my hands. Handcuffs, Daddy got me handcuffs! I look at Daddy to see him smirking at me. 

"I don't know what to say Daddy." 

"You don't have to say anything. Just trust Daddy, yeah?" 

"Of course, Daddy always." 

"Come with me baby, Daddy has some more presents but Daddy wants you in his bed." I take Daddy's hand and he leads me to his bedroom. "On the bed baby." I hop up on the bed, and wait for Daddy. He stalks over to me, "Arms up." I lift my arms and he pulls my dress off over my head. Now I am completely naked before him. "Hands out, palms up." I reach out my hands and watch as he fastens the cuffs to my wrists. When he is finished i test the strenght of them. They are solid effectively holding my wrists together. "On your back doll. Hands above your head." I do as bidded, and i watch as he pulls out a blindfold, ankle cuffs, and a new paci. This new paci is weird it has a band on it. Daddy attaches the ankle cuffs, then pulls my legs apart so he can attach my ankles to the bed posts. Daddy then picks up the paci, I realize that it is a paci gag. I start to panic, I struggle against the cuffs but can't go anywhere. "Hush baby. Daddy has you, relax. This is your new paci, if you need daddy to stop just snap your fingers together okay." I nod my head as he places the paci in my mouth. Daddy attaches it to my head. "Is that too tight babygirl?" I shake my head no. Daddy reaches for the blindfold and places it over my eyes. This is so intense, as I suckle on my paci, I feel Daddy between my legs. "Okay baby, since Daddy gave you that new paci and you can't talk, go ahead and cum when you need to." I nod my head in understanding. I can already feel myself soaking the sheets under me.

"Oh my, my I have a naughty littel girl on my hands. So fucking wet." Daddy says his soothing voice rough with desire. I can feel Daddy's tounge licking around my pussy lips. I am already so close to cumming, as soon as his tounge hits my clit I explode. I am rewarded with hearing Daddy groan. "Such a good girl baby. Daddy is going to fuck you now." I feel daddy move up so that his body is over mine. In one swift motion daddy drives into me. Over and over again Daddy's thick, hard cock rams into me. I can feel the tension building, I can tell Daddy is close because he is thrusting harder, and he is grunting. "Fucking hell baby, you're so tight." Daddy grits out. That pushes me over the edge, my whole body convulsing, and clamping on Daddy's cock. I feel the hot jets of Daddy's cummies in my pussy which sets me off agian. i scream through the paci. I feel Daddy pull out, uncuff my ankles and wrists. Daddy takes off the blindfold and takes out my new paci. He replaces it with my favorite paci. I feel Daddy crawl into bed behind me, and pull me close to him. "I missed you babygirl." 

"I missed you too Daddy." i drifted off to sleep knowing that Daddy would be there when I woke up.

So I found out that my Hubby wants a little that wears diapers. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that. My problem being is that I thought I was his little and he didn't tell me. I guess he wants a female little who is an AB. 

I love my hubby to the moon and back, but it hurts to think he didn't tell me I wasn't the little he was looking for. 

It's going to be a rough day for me. 

After talking with Hubby.......

He is looking for more of a switch. which is okay. The problem I had was that he didn't talk to me about it first. I was venting on here, sorry if I rubbed anyone wrong. Sometimes it is easier for me to vent via writing than in person.