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Whimsical thoughts. Never wrong and never right. Not an artist or a writer by any stretch of the imagination. I am just, me. I have stopped questioning it.
2 years ago. August 18, 2021 at 9:31β€―PM

Today Is My Birthday!! 


This is only the second birthday I have had, since I was 15, where I was single. So needless to say, this is the BEST BIRTHDAY EVER! 


Does that seem a little too obsessive? A little too self absorbed? Surely that isn't *actually* the case, and I am just being dramatic for drama's sake. Well!! Allow me to explain! 


I have only been in a relationship with 3 people in my life (In person-for the sake of this post). Yup, 3 people across every birthday I have ever had since 15. So, it may be a little easier to understand that if 3 people don't really treat you very special, then that is not going to change from one birthday to the next... Unfortunately, I have found myself fighting on my birthday more often than not in my life. I find that extra unfortunate. SHOULD NEVER HAPPEN PEOPLE!! CHECK YOUR EGO ON SOMEONE ELSES DAY!! 


People may read my profile and think that I am traumatized, standoffish, and relentlessly trying to *avoid* love and romance. But I am always giving my all to people... who tend to stick around, for at least a while. Oddly enough, which I am currently analyzing... the BDSM community has been the place where I have had the most toxic and harmful relationships of my entire life. I kind of accepted that coming in. My Vanilla relationships weren't nurturing to my soul, my nature, who I am. My BDSM ones haven't been either... but I made a commitment to myself, that I was no longer going to let that be an option. That I was going to have standards. So my experiences here, have been much shorter, have gotten to the catalyst of unhealthy and not standing for it, much sooner. 


Last year, I was dumped only a few weeks before my birthday, so I was still living with my ex-Dom when the day rolled around... so that couldn't have been a good birthday. I think we had Mexican, so I didn't have to cook, which was nice... but my head was a mess of trying to establish myself in an entirely new country, with nothing to my name except a scholarship for school. Not great. 


This year though!? This is the year for me. My life, all my accomplishments and all my struggles. Becoming the person I am today, this person I am proud of. 


So in common... but maybe not so common, Birthday Fashion! I am posting some motivational quotes that remind me how far I have come, what I deserve and the humble amazingness that is me and every part of me. No premium, so you will just have to manage with my word porn. I will provide links. 


"It's about who stays. Not who fucking promised." ~ Thomas, Peaky Blinders 


"I've taught myself to talk to everyone in their own language. I just need someone to talk to me in mine" ~Unknown 


"I hope that someday when I am gone, someone, somewhere, picks my soul up off these pages and thinks, 'I would have loved her"" ~Nicole Lyons 


 "She's a simple woman, made to look complicated by a man who isn't man enough to provide the things she deserves." ~r.h. Sin


If you want, you can follow my Pintrest board: "Introvert to the Enth." just a compilation of things that inspire and resonate with me about my INTP personality. 


You might also like: "People are so Smart!" Which is just oddities that my warped brain finds funny and helps me relate with humanity. 

((I am not super active. It is just good wholesome content. I hope you find something that speaks to you! We all share common ground)) 


If you are stopping by here, please say hi! let me know if any of them inspired you. It is MY birthday, but I know these things about myself already, so it would be a wonderful present to know I helped someone. My subby heart would be happy. <3 <3 Let me know if any other of the pintrest quotes spoke to you, and leave me a link! 


Have a great day 



SweetSirRendering​(sub female) - "I hope that someday when I am gone, someone, somewhere, picks my soul up off these pages and thinks, 'I would have loved her"" ~Nicole Lyons

how beautiful

happiest of birthdays to you to you! πŸ₯³πŸ’›
2 years ago
Sir Don​(dom male) - HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY
2 years ago
Bunnie - Happy birthday! I hope you have a wonderfully soul nourishing day :)
2 years ago
SirsBabyDoll​(sub female){Pizza+β˜•} - Happy birthday OP; πŸ₯³πŸ°πŸŽπŸŽ‚πŸŽˆπŸŽ‰πŸŽπŸŽπŸŽπŸŽˆπŸŽ‰πŸ°πŸ§πŸ₯³πŸŽπŸ°πŸ§πŸŽ‚πŸŽˆπŸŽ‰πŸ•―οΈπŸ•―οΈ
2 years ago
Gaiawolf​(sub female){RogueWolf} - Happy Birthday!!!! 😊
2 years ago
Azure Kitsune​(sub female) - Happy Birthday πŸŽ‚ πŸ₯³ πŸŽ‰
2 years ago
MuzzledCrown​(sub female) - Happy birthday!! Thank you for such a great post 😊
"It's about who stays. Not who fucking promised." ~ Thomas, Peaky Blinders
πŸ’œ This quote resonated with me!
This one's for you! I hope you're having an epic birthday!
"If You Have The Ability To Love, Love Yourself First." – Charles Bukowski

2 years ago
OraclePollon​(sub female){NotYours} - Yuss!! Thank you. I try to make that one my Mantra! <3
2 years ago
Master13​(dom male){MajesticLy} - Happy Birthday 🎁
2 years ago
Curiousmind​(sub female){Owned} - Wow Oracle, the words that struck me in your blog: β€œ the BDSM community has been the place where I have had the most toxic and harmful relationships of my entire life”.
I really hope that will change for better and a new fulfilling relationship is just around the corner for you!

Wishing you a Happy birthday! Celebrate you and find something that brings smile to your soul today 🌺🌹

Here’s the link from Pinterest with a quote that you might find inspiring :

2 years ago
OraclePollon​(sub female){NotYours} - It is not really by any fault that it is a place I have opened up the most, when you allow yourself to be the most vulnerable in your life, you can fall much further. There is something to be said about being guarded like I had been for 16 years, and finally allowing myself to be free and expressive and my full self here. <3 Thank you for the quote!!
2 years ago
Curiousmind​(sub female){Owned} - I agree Oracle that living through a particular relationship within the lifestyle can hurt us deeply due to being extremely vulnerable. However, on the other hand it can provide the most satisfying and fulfilling journey with the right partner. I hope you find such person in the near future!
Best wishes πŸŒΈπŸ¦‹
2 years ago
Redkitten - Happy Birthday!!πŸŽˆπŸŽπŸŽŠπŸŽ‰
2 years ago
MissBonnie​(dom female){oz} - I hope you have an amazing and wonderful birthday, just like the amazing and wonderful person you are. I hope the day brings you all can want and more. I hope your special days happiness follows you for many days to come. πŸ§πŸŽ‚πŸŽˆπŸŽ‰πŸ•―οΈ

2 years ago
Cressida Clytie​(masochist female){Taken} - Happy Birthday!
2 years ago
shysweetness​(sub female) - Happy Birthday! πŸŽ‚πŸŽˆπŸŽπŸŽ‰
I hope you had a lovely day!
2 years ago
Sweet Ginger​(sub female){βš“ } - Wishing you a happy belated birthday πŸŽ‚
Be good to yourself until you find someone who treats you as the special, beautiful woman you are. 🌹
2 years ago
justcurvysub - Happy belated birthday πŸŽ‚
The quote " it's about who stays, not who fucking promised" i can really resonate with. Actually got me a bit teary eyed lol thank you for sharing I love quotes. Hope your birthday was one of your best days this yearπŸ™‚
2 years ago
OraclePollon​(sub female){NotYours} - I live pretty much all of that characters quotes. T_T
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OraclePollon​(sub female){NotYours} -
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