Today Is My Birthday!!
This is only the second birthday I have had, since I was 15, where I was single. So needless to say, this is the BEST BIRTHDAY EVER!
Does that seem a little too obsessive? A little too self absorbed? Surely that isn't *actually* the case, and I am just being dramatic for drama's sake. Well!! Allow me to explain!
I have only been in a relationship with 3 people in my life (In person-for the sake of this post). Yup, 3 people across every birthday I have ever had since 15. So, it may be a little easier to understand that if 3 people don't really treat you very special, then that is not going to change from one birthday to the next... Unfortunately, I have found myself fighting on my birthday more often than not in my life. I find that extra unfortunate. SHOULD NEVER HAPPEN PEOPLE!! CHECK YOUR EGO ON SOMEONE ELSES DAY!!
People may read my profile and think that I am traumatized, standoffish, and relentlessly trying to *avoid* love and romance. But I am always giving my all to people... who tend to stick around, for at least a while. Oddly enough, which I am currently analyzing... the BDSM community has been the place where I have had the most toxic and harmful relationships of my entire life. I kind of accepted that coming in. My Vanilla relationships weren't nurturing to my soul, my nature, who I am. My BDSM ones haven't been either... but I made a commitment to myself, that I was no longer going to let that be an option. That I was going to have standards. So my experiences here, have been much shorter, have gotten to the catalyst of unhealthy and not standing for it, much sooner.
Last year, I was dumped only a few weeks before my birthday, so I was still living with my ex-Dom when the day rolled around... so that couldn't have been a good birthday. I think we had Mexican, so I didn't have to cook, which was nice... but my head was a mess of trying to establish myself in an entirely new country, with nothing to my name except a scholarship for school. Not great.
This year though!? This is the year for me. My life, all my accomplishments and all my struggles. Becoming the person I am today, this person I am proud of.
So in common... but maybe not so common, Birthday Fashion! I am posting some motivational quotes that remind me how far I have come, what I deserve and the humble amazingness that is me and every part of me. No premium, so you will just have to manage with my word porn. I will provide links.
"It's about who stays. Not who fucking promised." ~ Thomas, Peaky Blinders
"I've taught myself to talk to everyone in their own language. I just need someone to talk to me in mine" ~Unknown
"I hope that someday when I am gone, someone, somewhere, picks my soul up off these pages and thinks, 'I would have loved her"" ~Nicole Lyons
"She's a simple woman, made to look complicated by a man who isn't man enough to provide the things she deserves." ~r.h. Sin
If you want, you can follow my Pintrest board: "Introvert to the Enth." just a compilation of things that inspire and resonate with me about my INTP personality.
You might also like: "People are so Smart!" Which is just oddities that my warped brain finds funny and helps me relate with humanity.
((I am not super active. It is just good wholesome content. I hope you find something that speaks to you! We all share common ground))
If you are stopping by here, please say hi! let me know if any of them inspired you. It is MY birthday, but I know these things about myself already, so it would be a wonderful present to know I helped someone. My subby heart would be happy. <3 <3 Let me know if any other of the pintrest quotes spoke to you, and leave me a link!
Have a great day