I started an online program 2 weeks ago and though I go back and forth on it, I actually really enjoy it.
Somedays are easier then others, mainly because the projects are easier and less time consuming. But on those bad days I have someone who seems to know just what I need.
My mind won't just turn off. Thoughts flood on what I need to do, how I'm going to do it, should I do it like this...ect. And he just knows.
He knows what I need even when I don't.
He tells me to come lay down and cuddle, rubs my forehead and kisses my hands when they're sore from so much writing and typing. When I'm really stressed out and my mood has dropped, he takes me to the garden.
When I think my project(s) suck he tells me how they are amazing. He supports my ideas and encourages me to move further. Also, let's not forget the cuddles.😸
these are things you think have no real significance. You go through life emotionally alone. Maybe get a "good job" from some friends and family. But to have a person who smiles so bright when you accomplish something, to cheer you on and kick you in the but when your struggling. You don't think you need it and when you have it it's like a piece of the puzzle has just clicked.
I often wonder where I'd be if he hadn't found me. Would I have taken these steps in bettering my future? Would I have let my little out and enjoyed having her out? Would the fact that I had been so use to being my own support system have made me cold and closed off?
Also, cuddles!😸
Who knows and I'm glad I never have to find out.
I love you Daddy. Thank you for being you.
