Firecracker Diaries - A combination of stories, random thoughts and an appreciation log of life with Daddy

TV verses books

I’ve never really been much of a TV watcher. I will watch when others are watching...or watch some shows randomly. I’ve finished some series...Of coarse I watched every episode of GOT!! But over all...I prefer to read.

Reading can take your mind to another time and place...and make you be in that moment in the book. I like all kinds of reading...an actual book, magazines, ebooks, Wattpad, etc...I love it all!!!

I love to shut my brain down with a good read. Most of the time I picture myself as the main character or my love...but our faces is what I see. Us going through the story as us. Especially in the erotica stories!!!

If you haven’t taken the time to read in a while...i encourage you to do so!! Even better would be for you and your one to read the same stories and open up the conversations about them...it’s a wonderful experience as a couple. It’s wonderful for my Master and I...

Until tomorrow...

TGIF

It’s been a super long week. I was extremely thankful for 5PM to roll around today. Master and I were apart last night so it really made for a super long day.

The day before I was in a dreamy state all day long...after Daddy took me to never never land the night before.

He took me slow an steady...holding on to each other...wrapped tightly around each other. He then put me in the position to go deep inside. He held on to me tight and entered me to the deepest he could go. This puts me in a paralysis...so all I can do is take him all in...just concentrating on the pleasure of it. Letting my body enjoy the pain and the pleasure...

Thank goodness he is back home for the night and I can cuddle with him. I will get to snuggle into his pillows after he leaves in the morning...enjoying his scent without having to hear an alarm telling me it’s time to stop.

Here’s to the weekend and more time with my Love...

Until tomorrow...

Honor...

If you look up the definition of honor you will see - high respect; great esteem or - adherence to what is right. The word itself can be applied to many different things. We can attach it to a group or a person. We can attach it to actions. For me is can be a very powerful and meaningful word.

If I apply it to my Master...I honor his wishes, I honor our rules, I honor his authority over me.

If I apply it to my Love for him... I honor and respect our relationship, I honer my actions and respect my body and mind to be only his. I honor and cherish the love he gives me and protect it fiercely. Give him the same honor with my love...

Most of all I like to apply the word to myself. Honor myself and ensure that all is the best for me. Honor the values I hold dear and never waiver on those. Honor my word and be true to my heart...promise myself to enjoy life.

It’s a beautiful word that can mean so much. Don’t take it for granted and believe in its meaning...for yourself and the ones your love.

Until tomorrow...

Peopling...

I know it’s a weird word...but it’s exactly what I have to do everyday.  You know putting on the right face, checking any attitude, and interacting with a variety of people.

My variety includes employees, executives, customers, suppliers, potential customers, haters, imbeciles, etc. In my position I have to be professional at all times. I have to set the example of the right way to be. I’ve learned to say all kinds of crazy stuff in my head and keep a smile on my face the entire time!

Because I do this everyday...sometimes after work I don’t want to deal with any people...just my one person. He’s the only person I want to interact with. He’s the only face I want to see...he’s the only voice I want to hear. He’s the only one I want to be with.

I feel like I can be completely myself with him. I don’t have to be anything but his. It’s extremely easy to just be his...and it’s where I feel the most comfortable.

I will people all day long...as long as I know that I get to be with my favorite person at the end of it all. He keeps me going and keeps the smile on my face...

Until tomorrow....

No AC...

So we have been without AC since Saturday. Up until today it has not mattered since the weather has been cool and I went to stay with Daddy over the weekend. But now it’s warm in the house since in was in the 80’s today....

I’ve stripped down naked and laying in the bed....making sure that I’m not going to be able to use the covers tonight...and all I can think about is wishing my Daddy was here so I could cuddle with him.

I know that it would be miserable for him...especially since I already run hot...I’m like a little oven next to him...making him sweat and making me sweat. I’m not sure how he deals with it on regular days...but definitely not without AC!!!!

It’s funny how even when I can’t imagine about reason to want to be hot...I wish he were here.

Last night he put us in a 69 position... he was amazing!!! I’m pretty sure my performance was lacking....it’s so hard to concentrate when other pleasures are happening...but I made up for it when I rode him to complete oblivion!!! We both slept like royalty... and all I want for tonight is to be wrapped around Him sweating this heat out! Lol

Tomorrow night can’t come soon enough!!!! Hopefully the AC will be fixed...and Daddy comes home for the night!!!!

Until tomorrow....

Beautiful weather...

The weather has been crazy this year to say the least...but today to weather was absolutely gorgeous. It’s mid June and it was mid 60’s today in Colorado. Just the type of day that you open up the windows and enjoy it.

I’ve never leaved in a place where I could open up the windows in June. It’s so nice to be able to enjoy the outdoors. I’ve always been in places where the heat is unbearable...I’m loving this.

It doesn’t matter rain or shine...i always try and take a moment to appreciate the simple beauty of the outdoors. Last weekend while we were on the river...the peaceful sound of the river and the surroundings were simply amazing. No cellphone coverage...only nature.

Take it in sometimes and just appreciate it. You will be surprised how it can completely uplift your mood.

Until tomorrow...

My King...

My King, Master, Daddy went back to work today. My saving grace is that he is only and hour away and I can go to him any evening I want. He will also come home when ever he wants.

A perfect scenario would be for us to be able to be together all the time! Lol...but I know that I’m able to appreciate the moments we have together even more with times like these when he’s working or when I’m working.

Day by day I feel I still grow closer to this man. My feelings grow stronger in a deeper way. My commitment to him is changing in a more meaningful way...the true meaning of why he is my King.

I’m hoping he can feel how I feel about him and how it just gets better as time goes by. My whole heart belongs to him. He is my Master through and through... my soul is connected to his and my heart beats to his rhythm.

My King is my compass. Where he leads I will follow. The love he gives me is beyond anything that I have ever imagined was possible. He makes me a better person...and full of life. The world is so much brighter now that he has shown me what life should be about. All things are possible in this life he has shown me.

Thank you Daddy...

Until tomorrow....

Ugly People...

One thing I can’t stand is rudeness. This could be because I was southern raised and the concept is not part of the culture. You’re taught from a young age to show respect and kindness until that person loses the right to your hospitality.

Even now with people that I completely dislike...I’m polite...until they make me not be. But never am I rude or hateful just because.

I’m dealing with some individuals at work that obviously don’t like me...and this is due to what I believe as their response to being intimidated by me and my ability to what to run my part of the business. These people are in high leadership levels and act like complete assholes because of their titles. They actually enjoy the opportunity to show their dislike for me through rudeness every time they have the opportunity. So how do I handle this...with extreme friendliness...so much so that it’s over kill. I think it’s fueling their fire...

All I can do is smile and keep moving forward...but it drives me insane. I will never understand the concept of being mean or rude to someone...just because. It’s not humanly right....

Until tomorrow...

Losses...

Have you ever lost something and you don’t even know why? I’m referring to relationships with people. Like a friend that you might have lost and really don’t know why...you both just lost touch with each other. Or a family member that your not as close with and there is really no reason.

Sometimes it’s your fault...you don’t keep up with the connection or do what your supposed to to maintain that relationship.

Sometimes it’s the other way around. You do what your supposed to and for whatever reason there is no reciprocation from the other party. Their reasons could be justified by themselves...but they are never explained or discussed with you. It could be that their lives are way more complicated than you realize.

When the later of these is the case...do you just except the way it is? Or do you try to keep maintaining a relationship that they are not trying with you to keep?

That’s the struggle...determining what to do next. Your mind plays tricks on you about what causes it...you don’t approach the subject as the response my be a negative about you. There has been no fight...there has been no fallout...do you want to start something that might not even be there?

Or do you move on and invest in the people that invest in you back. The people that support you even when they don’t agree with you. The people that love you even though you haven’t talked in a month. The people that know your a solid even though you’re far away.

I think you respect that everyone has their own lives...and enjoy any amount of time you are able to spend with them...even if it’s a phone call that’s brief every once in a while.

Until tomorrow...

Insanity...

I’m sure you have heard that the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result. I’m sure most of as has experienced this at one time or another in their life. Sometimes it’s at work, life choices or relationships. It’s the relationship side of it that I don’t understand.

For myself I’m the type that when I’m done...I’m done. Like no holding on, no let’s be friends, no nothing!! It’s literally like that person doesn’t exist any longer. Especially if that person is toxic...I completely cut it out. It might sound cold, but I’m able to turn it off like a switch....and have no emotions about it.

I’ve never been able to understand how or why anyone would want to stay attached to someone that is a cancer to their life. Even when you have to have a common interest like a child or family...you can still determine what you will allow and what you won’t with that person. You have the ability to completely control how that person makes your feel, what they can do to you and how you respond.

So why do so many people continue to allow a toxic person to have an effect on them long after the relationship is over. Why do people choose to continue in the insanity of what made the relationship end? Is it a strange attraction to the drama? Is it because that’s what has been a normal? Or is it because you never really wanted it to end and are holding on to the last parts that were remaining?

Maybe my way of handling things in the unusual way. I choose not to deal with anything when I’m done...maybe that’s unhealthy? But I would think continually engaging in the madness would be more unhealthy.

Random thoughts for the day...

Until tomorrow...