15 more days...
How do you apologize for something that is out of your control? Sometimes things happen that is nobody’s fault...but blame or anger is directed at someone. That someone is me today...
I tired to help with something and didn’t help the way he wanted and couldn’t give the right answer for a problem that was not my doing. All the frustration with the situation was aimed at me. How do I fix something that I have no control over? How????
I’m not the fighting kind. Yelling and hateful words just make me turn inside...and go into self destruction mode. Not talking to me...giving me the silent treatment is like setting me on fire. I don’t like anyone to be mad at me...especially him....and I don’t even know what happened!!!
Between the loneliness, emptiness and now this....it’s too much for today. I need this day to be over with...
Fuck today...
Until tomorrow...