6 more days...
Its so close and still so far away. Every single moment feels like forever when you are away from the one that makes the blood pump through your body, the one that is the feeling in your skin, the air you breathe and the harmony to my song.
I'm playing our moment when we are back together over and over in my head...and no matter how it's played out...it's mind blowing.
Just thinking about having him back here, breathing his air, smelling his smell and feeling his touch makes me wet. My body is in such withdrawl from him...that I might just orgasm at the sight of him in the airport. My lips crave to be connected to his, my hands all over his body, his eyes looking into mine. Our first night will be unrelenting...
I am also excited to be fullying engaged in our D/S relationship. All of the rules will be in effect and I will be expected to execute all of my duties as his slave. I'm extremely excited to show him my full devotion daily...worshiping his body daily and kneeling at his throne(so to speak). Submitting myself to all his needs an having him guide me into all that he has to teach me in our physical playtime. Introducing me to my new world of exploritory sexual escapades and making new experiences for us both...exploring all of the sensations our bodies can give us.
I am nervous that I might put myself into punishment with my actions (or my mouth) or a rule I might break...and how am I going to respond to the punishment? Will it teach me a lesson? Will it be painful? Will I cry like a 2 year old? Will I like it? All of these thoughts run through my head...and I fear that my overthinking things will lead to some sort of disappointment from him...and that's really what I want to avoid!!!
How to I stop overthinking about the one that I can't stop thinking about??? I just want everything to be perfect...and I don't want myself to ruin it. Lol...that sounds crazy...but it could happen!
I want to be as perfect for him as he makes me feel. I want to give him everything he deserves and more. I want him to have enough "moments" to make it through the next 20 days when he has to go back. I want to be able to share some of the amazing moments in this blog for everyone to see how perfect he is...
The butterflies are in full flight everyday just thinking of him...and each night I write this blog brings me another day closer to him.
Until tomorrow...