Excited to get him back...excited to really be in this new life and relationship we have started...ready to be his sub, his slave, his everything in the flesh for 10 days!! STRAIGHT!!!
We have been discussing all the things we want to experience with each other. All the things we want to do. I am learning more each day how to respond as his sub...and these conversations just bring us closer an closer. I can't wait to see what experiencing these moments does to our relationship.
This is my first relationship as D/S and first experiences in the BDSM lifestyle. My experiences in the past have been very vanilla in comparison to what I am open to trying/doing with him. He wants me to tell him what I want to try and do...and of course my first reaction is the normal fifty shades of gray answer - tie me up, bondage, blindfold me, sensory play, spanking, teasing an light torture. I'm not even sure what else I should mention at this point?? Is it strange that I want to try everything with this man?? I want to try the things that I didn't even know exsisted!! Its hard to admit that I am extremely green in this area...its kind of embarrassing to say I am jumping in with both feet and I have no idea what I am even jumping into!
But with him it feels right...I feel the need to open up everything for him...I feel more free with him than I have in my entire life. I feel more alive everyday...because of him.
But this is extremely exciting for me!! I have been searching all of the blogs and forums to get more information...I want to know what I don't know...I want to know where to start...what to tell him I want to do!! I want to find things to do to him...things that will amaze and blow his mind! Please him beyond his wildest dreams!! How can I get this information downloaded into my brain?!?!
My soul has opened up to this man...now my heart and soul belong to him completely. I want my body to experience everything with this man...my one. I will use my time with him wisely and value every single minute...cherish every single kiss and hug...memorize every single touch and feeling. Im so gitty with the thought of learning more about my body and worshiping his...I feel like a little girl with a brand new bag of make-up....Im ready to put it on, get dressed up and rock his world!!
5 MORE DAYS!!! :-)
Until tomorrow...