All I can say about today is that I am glad it's almost over! It's so frustrating to me because after my blog last night I got up this morning ready to face the day...even though I was running on little sleep due to tossing and turning in an empty bed.
I woke ...sang in the shower...put on a professional outfit...did my make-up and hair...and thought I looked pretty good concidering I hadn't really slept and had cried the day before. I'm guessing that I didn't look so hot...as all greetings were started with "You look tired"....Ok...keep pushing.....
Get to work and I am having a pretty productive day! Im missing my Sir...he has been busy today so not a lot of communication...but I'm good! Keep Pushing...
And then bomb...a hard left turn...into a wall. Something at work happens...an issue that now has HR involved...and I lose it. Between me trying to keep it together and drama at work....I just lose it. Its just all too much! The trama of Master leaving, the getting used to him gone accompanied with not getting to talk or see him as much because he is working, drama a work...It's just too much for today...
I know that I'm not making him happy with the way I am feeling...and that just makes it harder on me. Once I have got to this point its so hard to control what is coming out of me...and now it's just tears.
I need to be held..I need to be squeezed tightly....I'm in that spot that I wanna curl in a ball and hide in the closet...
I want this feeling to leave...I'm ready to be happy and content again....I know it usually takes me a couple of days...but my GOD...please give me myself back!!
I just need words of encouragement and love....what I really need right now I cant have and that is him.
Sorry for the rant...just needed to vent a little....tomorrow has to be better...
Until tomorrow.
