Today I wanted to work on some of the things I talked about in my blog from yesterday...trusting my submission to my Master. It just so happened that he wasn't going to be able to talk to me a whole lot today...so perfect timing.
I made sure to think about what he liked my hair to look like, my make-up, my clothes, etc...and focused on making sure I would be pleasing him with my appearance I got ready this morning. Focusing on his satisfaction with my presentation of myself to the world. After all I am his...I should make him proud of what he owns.
While working my thoughts never left him....but I tried hard to keep my thoughts focused on pleasing him...what we would do once he was home, how to make him smile, what I could do from here to serve him there, etc. More of he positive thoughts...not the depressive selfish thoughts that usually keep me sad. And you know...it really works!! I found myself more in a planning and thinking mode...not depressed. Its actually nice!!
While thinking I want to plan on talking to him about maybe being more specific with me on how i can serve him while he is away. I also would like to discuss the possibly of us having some set times where we focus on us and growing our Master/Slave relationship. Its good for me to have him give me direction and hear him explain. It helps me understand how to serve him better. I also gives us time to learn more about each other and how we think...and exactly what we need from each other. I believe that this helps us both create more of a bond....which makes all of physical time even more magical.
I also want us to have some sessions planned out when he comes back to play and experiment. I always want to play and have sex...I honestly cant get enough...but what I am talking about is true Master/Slave Dom/Sub sessions where we are exploring our limits and taking each other farther. I am very inexperienced and honestly have no idea what I can take, or exactly what I like...and I cant wait for him to help me find it.
I want to be amazing for him....the best he has ever had. I want him to think about our life and know that this is perfect and everything and everyone has lead us to be together....and have an amazing everything.
I'm working on making sure my mind is his....my body and soul are already his!!! My training to focus on serving him has starting today...I always think about him....now I'm just trying to make sure I use these thoughts to benefit him!
Until Tomorrow...
