Only 3 more days! My heart is skipping like a school girl at play!! I am getting so excited to get him here!! I really hope the next 72 hours flies by....
So my world took a sharp turn today. A situation that is spinning out of control and really is pretty ridiculous is making me make a decision to make a drastic change in my life. And this change is going to get me closer to where I want to be...just a whole lot faster than I thought. And because some parts of my plans have not happen yet...but I still need to make this change...It means that I will have to depend on him a whole lot more.
For me this is very scary...I have always been the one that supports myself (and sometimes others). I have never taken a big jump and trusted someone to be there for me. It's scary...but for the first time in my life I feel like everything is telling me to trust and know that this is the right thing to do...and have faith in the love he has for me.
This situation that is happening...if it would be happening any other time...or if I were alone...it would probably break me. And honestly at this moment...even though I don't like the situation...I think it's fate doing what it needs to do to bring us together as we should be. Everything that has happened since I became his has been drawing us closer together...and now with this change it will allow me to be with him as it should be.
Because I am the giver...and I am his submissive....I am so excited that I will be able to please him more...and be able to take care of his every need. Because I am a strong woman...I am having to learn that real love means that he wants to support you through the hard times...and he wants to be a true partner in life with you. I don't know if I have ever had anyone want to take care of me (other than my mother)...and when you realize that he really does want to take care of me...its humbling.
At the end of it all I want to make sure that he is happy...I never want to add any stress to him. All I want to do is be with him and please him. I'm excited that all of our plans are coming together....maybe not how I thought they would...but they are still coming together.
I have so much faith in our love that I know that everything is going to be just as it should...I'm taking the leap and changing my world. It feels good...
Until tomorrow.