48 hours and counting!!! Im like a gitty little school girl on the weekend before the first day of school!!! I honestly can't wait to kiss him...I can almost taste him!!! I have to confess that I went to his vehicle today and just sat inside for a few extra minutes...It smelled like him...OMG...why did I not realize this sooner!!! I could have been getting a daily dose!!!
I've had a whole lot of new beginnings over the last couple of months. I finally started dating my crush...who had been my crush for the last 4 months prior to our first date!!! I become his submissive...which most of it is all new to me...and he has taken me under his wing and is teaching me daily. I start experimenting more sexually with him...and find I just want to explore more!!! We become exclusive and start falling in love. Learning to truly submit my everything to him opens me up to a love unlike anything I have ever experienced or dreamed of. I have found myself...the person buried deep inside...he helped uncover her. I became a blogger! And now I am taking the leap to change jobs to be able to be with him on a full time basis!
This is a giant leap of faith for me. I have always been independent...and during this transition I will need to depend on him for more. He is so supportive and encouraging...its just me that is nervous. And the weird thing is that I'm not nervous about the change...I'm actually really excited!!! I've just never had anyone want to do for me like he does. I got a random gift from him today...it came in the mail...and it was hair products...It may sound strange to anyone else...but to me it was like opening up the best present!!! He knows me and pays attention to even the smallest details of me...it's these types of things that just make me fall more in love with him...It just makes me want to submit more to him. I love that even though he is my Master and I am his slave...he encourages me to show my strength...In fact he pushes me to live my life strong. He pushes the best out of me...and he holds me accountable to it.
The direction I am going professionally will require me to have a self drive and ambition. I am already a great manager of my professional life...but going forward I will have to hold myself accountable for success. Sometimes I get so side tracked with my focus on him...my personal accountablity for things I need to do suffer. I know that he is supporting me and backing my decisions...I also know he will hold me accountable to being successful. I will not disappoint him!
I just want to ensure that he is as happy and content as I am. I wish I could just read his mind!!! I am literally at a place in my life that is completely new....new career, new love and new life. It's wonderful....I hope he feels exactly how I do!
I know alot of this is rambling and I'm sorry...but this is all new and I just have to get the nervous energy out of my head and keep remembering that I am worthy of him and this love...and keep fighting the doubt....it's getting so much easier every day...this helps (the blogging)...and the encouragement from all the people that have been reading our story.
48 more hours!!!!!
Until tomorrow...
