I had to do something to snap out of it. I had to get out of my head...so I did a little pampering for myself today. Mani/Pedi with a Christmas theme to help me get out of a funk!
It’s funny how a little pampering and a little shopping can put you at ease...even if just for a little while! I also took advantage of a lot of deals today and satisfied my need to do for others (gifts for Christmas).
It was nice to break out of the sadness for a while...
On the way home (1 1/2 drive) I lost cellphone coverage...and when I got it back...a voice message came through...from Master...oh NO!!! I missed a call!!! I’m in trouble!!! I listened to the message...and sure enough...he said this is the 2nd time you miss my call...there will be punishment. Holy Shit!!!
After some begging and pleading for understanding...I could talk myself out of the no service one...but not the one in the morning while my phone was on silent (was a family’s house and didn’t want to wake anyone) would not be forgiven.
In a weird way I’m glad he holds me accountable for these actions...even though I did not do it on purpose. But knowing that he is holding me to a standard that he will not compromise on...is worth it. I am his and I am his above everything else...this alone should never keep me from breaking a rule...and even when it was not done with intention...i am still accountable for my decision to put my phone on silence and missed his call.
I’m glad that we are also starting to get back in a groove after D Day...I think we both need it.
Until tomorrow...
