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Firecracker Diaries - A combination of stories, random thoughts and an appreciation log of life with Daddy

I'm a owned and collared. The journey I have been on with Daddy is amazing...and only gets better! This is my daily entries of what is going on in my head and stories of all the things I’m learning with Daddy!
6 years ago. December 4, 2018 at 4:44 AM

7 more days to go...and my excitement is building!! I honestly am tapping my fingers already!!

 


So with all this excitement and trip planning....why the tears tonight? Why did tears just start streaming down my face the moment I got off the phone with him tonight? Not just little tears...fat sobbing tears!!

 


I’ve been so consumed with being sick, Christmas shopping and trip planning that I had not realized how busy I have been. Busy is a good thing while he is gone...it keeps my mind going and the time passing faster. But today it kind of slowed down for me...and I think the lonely set in a little.

 


Lonely is not always a bad thing. It helps you appreciate all the time you do have...and cherish the physical touch so much more when he’s with me....but it does make me cry.  

 


I was alone before him...and I have felt lonely before...but now...with him...it takes on a new meaning...a deeper feeling of emptiness without him. It’s not about any attention or physical contact...it’s simply to be in his presence...this is when I feel alive. Without him either on the phone or together...I just exist. Just waiting to be back with him.

 


I know this sounds crazy...and maybe it is...but it’s truly the way I feel. I still have my identity and am very much still my own person...but I just feel black and white ...no color without him.

 


We will be back together soon enough and these feelings will be gone...my Master will bring color back into my world and my heart back to my chest. Until then...there might be a few more tears...

 


Until tomorrow...

Sensual City Girl​{ForeverHIS} - Ooohhh, my turn to give you BIG HUGS!!!! Too bad we live so far away from each other. I would have been over with some cupcakes and tea. They do bring a whole new meaning to our lives because they fill that emptiness with so much joy and happiness. Hang in there - it's happy tears of excitement from here on out!!
6 years ago

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